Nothing To Lose

I cannot handle this pain
In my mind and in my brain
My heart is slowly breaking
As suicide is in the making
Part of me says, "Why?"
And the other part says, "Just try."
I need you here to stop me
Otherwise I will no longer be
Here
There goes my tears
Don't you see?
I hate being me
I have no use
There's nothing to choose
Except this
You I will miss
Though
You ought to know
You were never here
When I wanted you near
I cried when you wouldn't answer
Sometimes
I felt angry
You didn't care
So here I sit
Wrists slit
Please don't cry for me
I had nothing to lose