wanting to so back in time to the last min

i am thinking over and over in my head wanting to go back before i want at my EX-friends house. I'm just sitting here thinking what i could of done instead of going over to Vicky's house. i could of been with my pap looking at him and said i love you before he died. i which i could of done that but no i Had do be so selfish and go knowing something bad id going to happen. why oh why did i let this happen. i would do anything to help him he was like my father to me. he did every thing with me he was the one that told me to get in that saddle and she that Ur my little cowgirl. and i did.
RIP PAP 11/30/08 I WHICH THAT YOU WERE HER TO HELP GO THO THIS