I shouldn't have jumped

Mommy I love you
Mommy don’t cry
Mommy I miss you
I’m sorry I lied

I didn’t mean to jump
I don’t remember why
Every memory I think of
Not one made me cry

I don’t know why I did it
I know you loved me so
I guess I just couldn’t take it
I couldn’t take him letting me go

I know I didn’t think
I feel so very selfish
Your tears are at their brink
I wanna come home

I never meant to hurt you
I just wanted him to regret
Ever hurting me like he did
Treating me like his little pet

Teenagers are so cruel
Right now I feel the meanest
I want to hug you so badly
And make this boo boo all better

I know you have to say good bye
I promise I’ll never forget you ever
I wish I could tell Daddy
I’ll be his little girl forever

Mommy I love you
Mommy don’t cry
Mommy I miss you
I’m sorry I lied

Tell my brothers I miss them
They are my greatest heroes
Tell Stephan I love him
I’m sorry fpr the fight
Tell scott I no longer mind
Being like him in every light

Tell Bayleigh when she gets bigger
That I miss her with all my heart
Tell Jonathon to keep trying
If he does he’ll get it right
Tell my daddy it isn’t as much fun
Without him by my side

But mostly tell yourself
That you did notihng wrong
I’m sorry I took it for granted
Every hug and kiss you ever gave
I’m sorry I just couldn’t see
How much of the love I couldn’t save

I shouldn’t have jumped
I know this now
I wish I hadn’t
It was a long way down

Mommy I love you
Mommy don’t cry
Mommy I miss you
I’m sorry I lied
And Mommy don’t worry
Because now God is by side