What We Never Were In The First Damn Place.
My life
Is a series
Of the same 5 people.
Every few months, a year, a tragedy,
Their places change.
The most important is now the least thought of
The least loved is now first place.
Insecurity
Loss
Fear
Someone is bound to care.
If I had my way I’d forget every one of them,
I’ve never been okay running back to the past,
But I do it anyways.
The sad truth being they’re all ex’s I can’t bring myself to forget.
They’re my only friends and I wonder how pathetic they think I really am.
I wonder if they’ll be shocked when they never here from me again.
I wonder if they’ll call me names for moving on without them.
I wonder if I can really manage to forget them.
All I know is that I no longer need them,
Because from now on, my life is more than a series of the same 5 people, their place in my life merely changing places.
You never loved me,
But I am more then you make me.
Is a series
Of the same 5 people.
Every few months, a year, a tragedy,
Their places change.
The most important is now the least thought of
The least loved is now first place.
Insecurity
Loss
Fear
Someone is bound to care.
If I had my way I’d forget every one of them,
I’ve never been okay running back to the past,
But I do it anyways.
The sad truth being they’re all ex’s I can’t bring myself to forget.
They’re my only friends and I wonder how pathetic they think I really am.
I wonder if they’ll be shocked when they never here from me again.
I wonder if they’ll call me names for moving on without them.
I wonder if I can really manage to forget them.
All I know is that I no longer need them,
Because from now on, my life is more than a series of the same 5 people, their place in my life merely changing places.
You never loved me,
But I am more then you make me.