I want to be friends now

I wanted to write this but i didn't.
I wanted to sat it but i couldn't.

Now i am going to write it.
Now i am going to put myself in pain.

I wanted to be your rock and your shelter.
I wanted to be your run to person and your first tought.

Now i think i was wrong.
Now i think i should stick to myself.

I wanted to be so much to you that i forgot why.
I wanted to fell something i lost way back.

Now i think i can't take it no more.
Now i think i don't need it to put myself out there any more.

I want you yes
I need you yes

Now i know i can be hurt and i don't want to
Now i know i can't handle myself the way i thought i could