"Helpless" Part 1&2

“Helpless”

Can I write down what I have to say?
Eyes wide open, I sleep by the day.
Tell me what it is, that I have to do.
Looking inside you, in search of a clue.
Trying my hardest, but you want him more,
Delusional expectations… bring me to the floor.
Sitting in nowhere, while this all unfolds.
Feeling so close, yet still put on hold.
Under this pressure, my bones start to crack.
Falling for you, now there no turning back.
Love is a passion, can never be bought.
Temptation is something I know can be fought.
I wont let this slip away.
Feelings within me no words can convey.

Helpless II” (The Gift)

Never saying what I want to say.
Fear that the written will turn her away.
Contrasting emotions of lives intertwined,
Walking the razor, a black .45.
Edging in friendship, the heart wont survive.
Trust is an issue, a subject unclean.
Choice by the wanted, has yet to be seen.
Addiction to substance, intrusion of thought.
The mold can be broken, for the life I have sought.
Give my forgiveness to the unknown I hate.
A love you held on to, one she does not fake.
A gift has been given, so do not forbid.
Advice from a stranger, the invisible kid.