BROKEN HEART ON A RING FINGER Pt. 1

~:~It’s funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the pieces~:~

Sitting alone thinking of someone
I knew so well some time ago
And all the little memories
Glimpse the moving photos

Flashing right before my mind
Every hallway, bathroom stall
I look up and down remembering
All those wasted days I crawled

Of soft wonderings and wishings
That he would come my way
And now he’s gone and I was wrong
So there’s nothing to betray

But sit here and let the tears fall
As the pictures keep on moving
And the photos keep on clicking
Still nothings worth the proving

Every moment I spend living
Another added to the notebook
That organized my life by date
Or the year the picture took

The feelings never changed
And every moment that I wake
His still reminder in my head
Because I let him in to take

I would have loved him then
I would have done anything
Had he asked but once
Every love song would I sing

I would have lived a life with him
That neither he nor I deserved
Though others say I did
As if this outcome I preferred

They say I am too good
When I know that it’s not true
Because I see no difference between us two
Neither us was lean or rude

There is no sign between him and I
Though he did back down and I stood high
And that’s why I fell back down
And that is why I sit and cry

And every song that understands
Every word that makes sense
By every muse that hears my heart
And puts it into words and tense

Brings up all the feelings
Of the loss that I’ve endured
Whether in a crowded room
Or quiet in my home unheard

So play a little song of another fork in the road
When the anthems of I don’t love you play
I listen and feel the rhythm
As I did that lonely Valentine’s Day

In one blink and suck in a breath
To make the water stop
Alone I let the tears fall
As the chorus reaches its top

And the songs make sense a new way
And the words pick up speed
That I never seemed to see
Before this break ever started to bleed

What I thought had healed long ago
Comes to surface yet again
Maybe because I understand
Something of the love they span

And maybe because I’m thankful
That I am not alone
That someone has been there before
And found a better home

So as my friends move on
And forget all that’s passed
I think they stop understanding
The hurts that cling on to the last

That an offbeat mention of his name
Or his figure ‘cross the hall
Still pack a new sprung slap in the face
Though I cover this façade

And I will not complain anymore
I’ve done that enough
And I will not cry in front of them
Though it’s still as tough

Answers yet are still unclear
The past is hard to follow
Because I’ve lost my say
The regret was hard to swallow

But the crying hung its head
A few tears dried by the sun
And the drinking and the hurting
Has lessened through the season

I realize now what he’d done
Was nothing less than treason
And I no longer wish him back
So I set my life back on its track