I Love You So Much, It Makes Me Sick.

{{For Rowan}}

I love you so much it makes me sick.

Beat my head against a wall.
Burn my skin 'til it's numb.
Scrape the skin from my arms.
Eat until I vomit.

Over do it and have a fit.

I can not forget you.
I can not forgive you.
I can not think.

Beat me out of me.

Remember you said you were okay?
You fucking lied.
Lied while your wrists bled guilt into the mattress.

She keeps a pumpin' straight to my heart.
She keeps a pumpin' straight to my heart.
She keeps a pumpin' straight to my heart.
She keeps a pumpin' straight to my heart.

And I told you to.
And I pay for it every time I see that necklace.
And I pay for it every time I dream about you.
And I pay for it every time I bleed for you.

I love you so much it makes me sick.

Beat my head against a wall.
Burn my skin 'til it's numb.
Scrape the skin from my arms.
Eat until I vomit.

Live until my guilt kills me.

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{{Note: btw. I wrote this at like 3 am.
So yeah. Not my best. But whatever.
oh, and the italized parts are Nirvana-Aneurysm.}}