Cold.

Far from lonely,
And in a desperate endeavour to smile,
I held myself close,
I held my head up high.

My heart is warped at its edges,
Damaged through and through.
The euphimism of your words.
Makes me hide from you.

Waking up on the other side,
When you inveigh against me.
When darkness impedes,
I tell myself I cannot bleed.

I put my hands together in prayer,
In hope I will not break
I pray to Him to release me
From this world I cannot take.

A bitter life, a resentful mind
I crawl, but there's no end.
I weep to myself in consolance-
But all I needed was your hand.

Do you find this amusing?
A thrill to the back of your spine?
I wish you will cease lying to yourself.
This is never going to be fine.

When you take the fall,
And all else fades away
I won't be there for you
Only be sure I will run away.