Devastating Lows

Why don’t you just go?
Why don’t you leave?
I already know,
All the tricks up your sleeve.

You stab my back so hard.
You seem to do it so well.
Broke my heart into tiny shards.
To you, ‘I do’, I will never tell.

Leaving me broken,
Like a forgotten child’s toy.
Truer words were never spoken:
“I hate you, you stupid cheating boy.”

Because of your poor decisions,
I’m left to pick up your messy sin.
Like tiny surgical incisions,
Sew my life back together again.

Piece by piece, and day by day,
The physical wounds heal slowly.
And my heart starts to hurt in a lesser way.
I blame you for everything, you alone solely.

I can’t believe I trusted you.
What a stupid fucking mistake.
The person I said I would be married to.
You promised that my heart you would never break.

You leave a lingering smell in my bed,
And a scarily dark scar on my heart.
I replay the moment in my head,
Our first date to the very last part.

I guess that fairy tales are for those,
Whom can’t think of anything real.
Cause my life is filled with devastating lows,
And right now, that’s all I can feel.