Not Just A Smile.

There is a story behind this smile,
No one knows it,
No one except me.
I’ve learned that
A simple smile
A ‘LOL’
Can cover up so many things
So many things people don’t
They don’t even try
To figure out why
No one knows the story
That sits behind this smile.

Parched lips
Never betray the secrets
Never show the lies
The lines
The emotions
These lips don’t even try
Never ever speaking up
Speaking out
Not even once talking down
Yet no one seems to care
Yet no one seems to see
All the things they’re hiding.

I wish I could say
I wish I could lie better
I wish so many things
All of them revolving around
You and them
Them and you
I wish I could be stronger
Strong enough to keep you happy
Happy enough
Whether I’m dying on the inside
Or not
I wish I could be like you.

So many things go on
Inside my head
Behind enemy lines
I can’t help but to remember
Remember all of the lies
And all of those moments
The times where nothing mattered
The times when we laughed
So hard that it began to hurt
I miss the ways we were
Yet those words stay
Behind these lips.

There is a story behind this smile
One you’ll never hear
One you’ll never know
The one secret I can’t bare to tell
The one thing I can’t say
A scar that I can cover up
But just barely
I won’t mess this up
But let me tell you this
I am a coward
That’s why you’ll never
Ever get to see this.