I'm Sorry I Never Told You.

Hey. i have a few spelling mistake. i know. and my grammar aint that god but just ignore it. lolz </3

I hid the pain so well, all this time.
nobody ever knew, what all the scar's meant.
they thought it was a excuse, a phase.
nobody cared, especially my parent's.

i'm sorry i never told you-
i've been in a deep depression since you left.
my best friend's don't even know,
everybody said, my smile would always glow.
i had a light in me.

what were they talking about?
i was trapped in the darkness.
felt like i was choking on water,
feeling sufocated under the sea.

I'm trying to stay strong, not give in,
and act like nothings wrong.
but it's too long, life takes forever,
we sin everyday, i sin the most.

wear all black, eyeliner in all.
my fear is taking over me, im waiting for the call.
to be free from this world, never look back.
to actually have no pain, left.

is hard to ignore, but it just hurt's even more.
keep staining the razor with bloody tear drops.
the less pain i have, but it does sting alot.

everybody always calling me a whore.
it get's old. quit labeling people, fuck. i dont listen to what i'm told.
it's old. this rewteen, is old, coming home to yelling, and screaming and heavy atmispheres.
my heart i know longer hold, i'm trying to tape it all back up. it keeps coming undone.