Reality's A Nightmare (When You're Not Here)
I see the lights of my past life
As they cast heavy shadows on the present
Being aware of reality makes me lose my will
To breathe, to move, to fulfill my destiny
I’m trying to swim in the pool of my bitter blood
It covers me in black agony
As I’m bleeding from the inside
My strength it is fading
As long as I’m unseen and forgotten
As long as they won’t believe in me
I’ll never feel as happy as I want to be
I’ll never get what I actually need
I know that I’ll never be ok, really
But can’t it be just a little bit easier?
A little less frustrating?
A little less painful?
Isn’t there a chance to get away
From this emotional wasteland?
Isn’t there anything more over there?
At least I’d like to fall asleep at night again
The blood is still warm in my veins
But it’s closer to getting stale than ever before
Because I’m not feeling alive
This shallow beating won’t take me anywhere
I wish I could get back to myself
Back to my soul that’s so close to being lost
Back home
As that’s what I need to find the most
Back to my hopes
That used to tell me I’ll never walk alone
Back to my belief that once told me I’ll never die
Before my life started to turn into a nightmare
Before I got lost in my self-created misery
In this black, wasted valley of sorrow and tragedy
Where my agony keeps me crying so pathetically
And forces me down to my knees
Where anxiety and apathy are holding hands
And self-pity grows and dwells
Like a black flower full of poison
And the echo of death is calling my name
The sole of my feet are bleeding
My blood it covers the ground
My skin is getting pale
Now I can hardly feel anything else
Life has pushed me so far
And now I don’t know where I am
I guess this is not the place
I intended to get to and my life is not the same
It seems like as if
The whole world is sleeping
And I’m the only one
Who’s wide awake
So am I sleeping or is reality a nightmare?
Now I long for the end
Because there’s nothing for me here
That’s worth reaching for - except you
You’re all that I have
Because you’re not like the rest
I can’ take reality
When you’re not here
So come to me and save me
Heal my wounds for I’m still bleeding
Just look in my eyes
And all this pain will get washed away
The mere touch of your hand
Will show me how to surrender
And your voice so tender
Is the last thing I wanna hear
Look right into my heart and convince it
To beat on and not stop
At least not today
Take my spirit away from unhappy thoughts
This world seems to cruel to me
And I mean it when I say
You’re the only reason why I’m still here
Make me feel as alive as you are
Push my problems a thousand miles away
And maybe I’ll be ok
Maybe I'll be ok
Maybe I'll be...
As they cast heavy shadows on the present
Being aware of reality makes me lose my will
To breathe, to move, to fulfill my destiny
I’m trying to swim in the pool of my bitter blood
It covers me in black agony
As I’m bleeding from the inside
My strength it is fading
As long as I’m unseen and forgotten
As long as they won’t believe in me
I’ll never feel as happy as I want to be
I’ll never get what I actually need
I know that I’ll never be ok, really
But can’t it be just a little bit easier?
A little less frustrating?
A little less painful?
Isn’t there a chance to get away
From this emotional wasteland?
Isn’t there anything more over there?
At least I’d like to fall asleep at night again
The blood is still warm in my veins
But it’s closer to getting stale than ever before
Because I’m not feeling alive
This shallow beating won’t take me anywhere
I wish I could get back to myself
Back to my soul that’s so close to being lost
Back home
As that’s what I need to find the most
Back to my hopes
That used to tell me I’ll never walk alone
Back to my belief that once told me I’ll never die
Before my life started to turn into a nightmare
Before I got lost in my self-created misery
In this black, wasted valley of sorrow and tragedy
Where my agony keeps me crying so pathetically
And forces me down to my knees
Where anxiety and apathy are holding hands
And self-pity grows and dwells
Like a black flower full of poison
And the echo of death is calling my name
The sole of my feet are bleeding
My blood it covers the ground
My skin is getting pale
Now I can hardly feel anything else
Life has pushed me so far
And now I don’t know where I am
I guess this is not the place
I intended to get to and my life is not the same
It seems like as if
The whole world is sleeping
And I’m the only one
Who’s wide awake
So am I sleeping or is reality a nightmare?
Now I long for the end
Because there’s nothing for me here
That’s worth reaching for - except you
You’re all that I have
Because you’re not like the rest
I can’ take reality
When you’re not here
So come to me and save me
Heal my wounds for I’m still bleeding
Just look in my eyes
And all this pain will get washed away
The mere touch of your hand
Will show me how to surrender
And your voice so tender
Is the last thing I wanna hear
Look right into my heart and convince it
To beat on and not stop
At least not today
Take my spirit away from unhappy thoughts
This world seems to cruel to me
And I mean it when I say
You’re the only reason why I’m still here
Make me feel as alive as you are
Push my problems a thousand miles away
And maybe I’ll be ok
Maybe I'll be ok
Maybe I'll be...