This Is Who I am. Live with It

“Watch my tears
See me cry
You’ll make it better
You’ll make it fine”

Frustration pounds through my veins
I watch the girl that everybody loves

She is adored

Soaking up the attention
Bathing in the glow
Her sentences are filled with “me’s” and “I’s”
Doesn’t even think twice about asking anyone else how they are

BANG!
My anger is taken out on the closest thing
An inanimate object. A bin
They look round in surprise
Did she just do that?
Was that her?

I’m the quiet one
The one everyone always misjudged
I don’t care what they think
Pointless advice that I’ll probably ignore

That girl, she looks at me with contempt

I sneer at her scrutiny

She’ll judge me by what I’m wearing, when she’s in that SAME old dress again?

Pfft!
This is who I am
Don’t try and change me

I watch everyone from the shadows, ignored
Sometimes I think that, if I disappeared, no one will notice

Shoot me down

Proclaim me dead

No one will care

But then I remember
I have proper friends, family too
THEY love me
I’m brought back to reality, smiling to mask my disgust

It all works out in the end, doesn’t it?

She’ll get her comeuppance some day...