You're Everything I Never Wanted.

I know now,
I know you don’t understand.
I may be a big girl
I may not cry
But I do when you’re not looking.

All I ever wanted
Was for you to say,
‘I want to rip his heart out for hurting you
I want to defend you
Through it all.’
I’ve never heard you say that,
You leave it all to me don’t you?

I’m only a girl
I’ve given up on trying to be something I’m not
You say you can hold your own,
You say you can fight them all
But you won’t for me
Would you?

I had to have a fire because
If not then I would end up like years before.
Broken and beaten,
I promised never again
But all I ever wanted was for someone to say,
‘I want to tare him apart for hurting you.’
I’ll fight for you
I already have
I gave everything up for you
You gave up nothing,
You made it melodramatic
You pretended to be hurting so much
But you don’t have the scar through body and mind
To prove it all.

You never stood for me,
Never promised that you’d keep me alive
When everyone else said
‘you’ll be 6 feet under ground before you hit 25’.
So why not?
There’s nothing you can give me

What about my hero?
My knight in shining armour
And yet I’ve been beaten.
I’ve been pushed down.
I’ve been fucking stalked
I told you and all you said was
‘You’ll be ok, you’re a big girl now’
What the hell?
And yet what if something was to happen to me?
I hope the guilt tares you apart just like you are doing to me.

I can still hear me screaming
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO?
And now all I get is
There’s fuck all I can do?
WHERE THE HELL DO I HIDE?
WHERE THE HELL DO I GO?
WHAT DO I DO?!
WHAT DO I DO?!
WHAT DO I DO?!

And now I realise.
You're everything I never wanted.