not sure of a tittle

When the lights start to fade
And my eyes start to close
Ill drop this razor blade
And watch a crimson puddle grow

Suicide is not so simple
I wish I didn’t decide this fate
My death will only be a symbol
Of lustful love turned into violent hate.

I wish I could apologize for my behavior
I’m always running away from my fears
But it turns out you’re my savior
The one who catches my falling tears

Someday this will all make sense
And maybe then the pain will hurt less
Now I have someone to argue in my defense
Just leave it all alone and put the stress to rest