On my deathbed

I could see you there
Crying in the corner, tears falling by
I looked away
Because I was there cause
I felt your touch
But I shook it away

There was no time to waste

I don’t want to go away from you
Because I love you too much to leave you
I don’t want to leave you alone
Because am too scared to do so
I heard your suppressed sob
And closed my eyes determined

I had to make you hate me
So when am gone you could start new, forgetting me

It is for the best, believe me

I told you to go away from me
In truth I always wanted you near me
I told you I didn’t want to see you
But all I wanted was to always see you

I know you were shattered
But am helpless
I know you were hurt
But am dieing

I saw you leave
Perhaps you couldn’t see me in my worst state
I saw you going away
Maybe you believed me……..

I know am dead now
Because I see you crying on my grave
I know am not here anymore
As I see you sitting beside my grave

But I also know, that you still love me
Because everyday I see you, laying a rose beside me