Suicidal

Suicidal.

Thats how it felt.

Dealing

with all the

bullshit

pain

stress.

Not enough strength

to take it all in.

Needed some help.

But at the same time

wanting

more.

Wanting the amazing

sensation.

But knowing that you will

dissapoint

discourage

hurt

all of those you love.

Pulling you apart

everyday.

Thats how it felt.

Suicidal.