A Laugh to Take Away the Pain

No more tears to be shed from all of the lies.
I deserve better; so do my eyes.
No more wounds to show from all the pain.
I am too good to slit my wrists in shame.
No more waiting for someone to say ‘I love you’.
I can only be there and really be true.
No more counting the days until I die.
I will leave when I’m ready to say goodbye.
No more hoping for that perfect man.
I will get him the day I realize I can.
No more suicide attempts for I am here to stay.
I will live and breathe and do it my way.
No more waiting for you to save my soul.
I need to grow up and take control.

I can no longer wait for tomorrow to come.
For I know that I’m the lucky one.
I have music and art to keep my heart beating.
I also have a mind that keeps me from cheating.
There’s no easy way to get out of here.
So I shall live no longer in fear.
A smile to keep my soul a flame.
A laugh to make no one take the blame.
The most beautiful thing is something I’ve learned.
It’s amazing if you love and are loved in return.
It’s not the love and happiness of friends.
It’s the type of thing that never ends.
It’s the love from myself that no one can give.
Without it I don’t think I could live.

I can only dream of one thing you see.
It’s the happiness that can come from only me.
If I were to die tomorrow I would say:
‘Life had it’s ups and downs but I wouldn’t remove a day.’
The beauty of flowers and the sky above.
Is something I will always love.
I hope I never neglect these wonders.
If I do I will die from this blunder.
These are the things that make me smile.
So I hope to not lose my artistic style.
If forgotten I have broken my own heart.
I will always be happy until the day I fall apart.