Afraid

This is the second song I wrote based on my unpublished story called 'Old Habits Die Hard'. This one took a bit more thought that 'Old Habits Die Hard' the song. I'm not sure if I like this one all that much, but I guess I'm satisfied with it.

Here I am, sitting on my couch
Staring out into the night
With nothing but a confused mind
Thinking about the fight
Was it true? Did I love you?
Did you love me back?
Or was it just an act I used to cover it up

Was I just afraid?
To feel the love that you have made me feel
Could it be true love or did I just
Conceal my heart with all these lies
Just to keep myself from living life
Loveless, hopeless, without creating all this mess
But it happened anyway
And I'm just too afraid to say, I love you too

When I think about what we had
It makes me wish we could have gone back
But I won't allow myself to fall into that again
I want you too, can't you see it's true
My love for you has always been real
But I wouldn't let myself

Was I just afraid?
To feel the love that you have made me feel
Could it be true love or did I just
Conceal my heart with all these lies
Just to keep myself from living life
Loveless, hopeless, without creating all this mess
But it happened anyway
And I'm just too afraid to say, I love you too
I see you up and about
Baby, it's killing me
You won't mutter a sound

Was I just afraid?
To feel the love that you have made me feel
Could it be true love or did I just
Conceal my heart with all these lies
Just to keep myself from living life
Loveless, hopeless, without creating all this mess
But it happened anyway

I'm crying out for you again
I'm sorry to have made this pain
Between you and me
Oh, I can't be free from our history

Was I just afraid?
To feel the love
Could it be true love or did I just
Conceal my heart
Just to keep myself from breaking apart