I Just Might Die

I dream of a day,
Where my pain,
Is washed away,
And I can say,
Its gone forever.

I plan,
My escape,
Courage beyond words,
Because all my clouds,
Have turned to grey.

I believe,
In God’s word,
And beside my pillow,
And my curtains,
I am certain,
It’s absurd.

My mind,
Is strong,
It’s comprehension,
So wrong,
What I shouldn’t understand,
Everything I never planned,
Is coming true.

I am lost,
Someone find me,
I am terrified,
And crying.

Is there nothing more you can do?
But, sit and watch in misery,
There you are,
Just watching me.

Break the ice,
It’s breaking dawn,
Show me somewhere,
I belong.

Broken and crumbling,
When I fall on my knees,
And sing.

My heart,
Is still beating,
But instead,
My soul feels nothing.

You won’t listen,
You won’t believe,
All the things,
That I’m saying.

My pain,
Is so great,
It’s all just so,
Un-comforting.

I am here,
Barely alive,
I am kind,
But I lie,
If I didn’t I might die.