Babyboy, this is for you.

You tore away my will to stay,
and now as dawn breaks,
as all hell breaks lose in my head.
I wish you where dead
both of you.
Ill kill you in my mind,
Hell I do it all the time,
you don't know me,
you never have,
Im not your game to play.
Im not your bike to ride,
you think you know me so well?
Fuck you go to hell.
you know nothing of me,
all you know is that I love you
You probably don't even know that.
I cry at night for you
for things I think I did wrong with you.
I hurt myself because your not here to do it for me.
I hate myself because I know I'm not the only one who dose.
If your reading this and turning your head away,
Because you think this is an act,
your a fool,
I hate you.
You have hurt me for the last time.
My heart is mine.
Go away, stay out of my mind.
Because I still cry for you,
I still want to hold you,
I still love you Derek.
But you cant see, past what you think is me.
So leave and act
hurt me more,
I know you don't want me back.
And I die inside for it baby.
I'm sorry, you need to know.
Your still my heart,
your still my star,
your still my soul.