I hate this part right here...

I hate this part right here
where reality hits us dear
the two worlds collide to one
and I am crying thinking we're done
thinking it will never be the same
I hide my face the rest of the time
feeling shame
I hate this part right here
when i wish i could hold you
but you're not near
I wish you cold hold me
as the moon glows above
but the fact remains
it wont happen my love
I am so naive
thinking these thoughts
my innocence escapes me
and I wish to be less destraught
i hate this part right here
where every motion
makes the road seem more appealing
I want to just run
the tears stain my make-up
thats now sliding down my face
it stains my pillows in pools of black
I am talking to you
trying to make up for the things I lack
i hate this part right here
where i can see you or
touch you or
listen to your voice
i can only go through this by choice
of precisely placed words
trying to cheer you up
I hate it when you're sad
I feel even worse when you're mad
knowing I am the cause
the nusciance
the flaw
that led to this emotional downfall
I hate this part right here
because i dont want to forever miss you
my dear
i want to be perfect for you
i want to be your bella
i want to be your moon
i want all this crying to end soon