im trying

i feel really frustated
life's just too comlicated
all i can do is repeat these cliche phrases over and over again
i don't think i can take this anymore
and day after day
as time passes by
i feel so blue
i can't think of what to do
i want to keep keep trying
but i'm so unmotivated
i feel so exhausted
i feel like stopping here
my tears are pricking
one after another
i want to scream but noone hears
i want to talk but the words wont come out
i take the pencil i let it dance on my flesh
i feel some pain but at least im not numb
my best friend's voice i hear, "please, stop it my dear"
"the scars will disappear so noone will know" i tell her
i've pushed as far as i can go
i've tried as hard as i could but in the end,
i just screw everything up perfectly