‹ Prequel: Everything I'm Not
Love's Requiem
An unseen Love
“So I was thinking after the show, maybe you and me could grab something to eat.” Alex began while I took my vitamin. “Cause you know, they’re going out partying.” He went on.
“Okay.” I smiled, as I crashed down on to my bed.
“You should try to eat your bagel you know.”
“Ugh I still feel sick, I’ll eat later.” I groaned shutting my eyes. “Sleep now.” I told him rolling on my side.
Ever since I got pregnant I’ve come to realize no matter how much sleep I get, I’ll always still feel like I haven’t slept for days and it sucked.
“How are you still tired?” Alex chucked as we left the room to meet everyone else and I was
resting my head on him while walking.
“Thing growing in me.” I groaned.
“Maybe you shouldn't be working with this you know?” He whispered as we headed to the elevator.
“I’m fine!” I exclaimed shooting my head up, making him chuckle. “Shut up.” I mumbled putting my head back on him.
“Is this all I am to you, a source of heat and pillow?” He asked me.
“Shhh I’m your baby mama you have to take care of me.” I joked making him laugh, as we walked off the elevator.
Once again the guys minus Jack were looking stunned by Alex and I.
“Sup bitches?” I exclaimed trying to act normally. “Whose ready for a fun filled afternoon of press? I know I am I can hardly contain myself!” I exclaimed making everyone chuckle as we
headed to the venue.
While the guys did their press in the dressing room, I had my walk through of the venue and other work to do. Press was finished just in time for sound check. After sound check they guys went outside to talk to some of the kids while I sat for a bit and tried to get rid of the pounding headache I had.
“You and I need to talk.” I said as I heard Jack walk in to the dressing room. “Stop hating me I’m doing the right thing now.”
“I don’t hate you Bella.” Jack sighed as I felt him sit next to me.
“You totally did.” I told him as I took my arm off my eyes.
“So you and him finally back together?”
“No,” I said shaking my head, “But we’re coexisting pretty well together.”
“So you don’t love him?”
“Who knows,” I shrugged.
“You’re so confusing!”
“I know but look everything is going to work out. That much I know.” I told him.
“How are you so sure about that I mean does anyone else know outside of me and him?”
“My friend Michi in Croatia, just you have to trust me.”
“You unquestionable faith scares me sometimes.” He sighed and hugged me.
“Amen to that homes.” I chuckled hugging him back. “I missed you fool.”
“Same here Bella.” He laughed as Alex came in the room.
“Finally you’re friends again! It was getting weird.” Alex said sitting next to me.
“Well I’m glad you’re here.” I told him.
“Why? What did I do now?”
“I have 45 minutes until catering gets here, and I have to go over the guest list.”
“Okay,” Alex sighed opening his arms.
“I’m so lost.” Jack said getting up.
“I’ve recently been hired as her bed.” Alex explained as I went in his arms and snuggled in
to his chest as I felt him wrap his arms around me.
“Wake me at 5 please?” I asked mumbled in to him.
“You go it.” Alex said softly as I felt him play with my hair.
“Okay.” I smiled, as I crashed down on to my bed.
“You should try to eat your bagel you know.”
“Ugh I still feel sick, I’ll eat later.” I groaned shutting my eyes. “Sleep now.” I told him rolling on my side.
Ever since I got pregnant I’ve come to realize no matter how much sleep I get, I’ll always still feel like I haven’t slept for days and it sucked.
“How are you still tired?” Alex chucked as we left the room to meet everyone else and I was
resting my head on him while walking.
“Thing growing in me.” I groaned.
“Maybe you shouldn't be working with this you know?” He whispered as we headed to the elevator.
“I’m fine!” I exclaimed shooting my head up, making him chuckle. “Shut up.” I mumbled putting my head back on him.
“Is this all I am to you, a source of heat and pillow?” He asked me.
“Shhh I’m your baby mama you have to take care of me.” I joked making him laugh, as we walked off the elevator.
Once again the guys minus Jack were looking stunned by Alex and I.
“Sup bitches?” I exclaimed trying to act normally. “Whose ready for a fun filled afternoon of press? I know I am I can hardly contain myself!” I exclaimed making everyone chuckle as we
headed to the venue.
While the guys did their press in the dressing room, I had my walk through of the venue and other work to do. Press was finished just in time for sound check. After sound check they guys went outside to talk to some of the kids while I sat for a bit and tried to get rid of the pounding headache I had.
“You and I need to talk.” I said as I heard Jack walk in to the dressing room. “Stop hating me I’m doing the right thing now.”
“I don’t hate you Bella.” Jack sighed as I felt him sit next to me.
“You totally did.” I told him as I took my arm off my eyes.
“So you and him finally back together?”
“No,” I said shaking my head, “But we’re coexisting pretty well together.”
“So you don’t love him?”
“Who knows,” I shrugged.
“You’re so confusing!”
“I know but look everything is going to work out. That much I know.” I told him.
“How are you so sure about that I mean does anyone else know outside of me and him?”
“My friend Michi in Croatia, just you have to trust me.”
“You unquestionable faith scares me sometimes.” He sighed and hugged me.
“Amen to that homes.” I chuckled hugging him back. “I missed you fool.”
“Same here Bella.” He laughed as Alex came in the room.
“Finally you’re friends again! It was getting weird.” Alex said sitting next to me.
“Well I’m glad you’re here.” I told him.
“Why? What did I do now?”
“I have 45 minutes until catering gets here, and I have to go over the guest list.”
“Okay,” Alex sighed opening his arms.
“I’m so lost.” Jack said getting up.
“I’ve recently been hired as her bed.” Alex explained as I went in his arms and snuggled in
to his chest as I felt him wrap his arms around me.
“Wake me at 5 please?” I asked mumbled in to him.
“You go it.” Alex said softly as I felt him play with my hair.