The Pain I've Grown to Know
I can't
Allie's P.O.V.
"what about your girlfriend?" i asked him
"i wasn't thinking about her" he told me
"i know but i'm not that wrong of a person" i told him
"i know but i need to see if this is right. i mean i have many strong feeling for you and i know you feel the same way as me" he told me
before i knew it our hands met. this time our lips met. we both didn't want to break apart from this kiss but i knew this wasn't right. i had to stop this. i pulled away
"i can't do this" i told him
"what?" he asked me.
"i can't do this. you have a girlfriend and i'm not the person to fuck up your relationship" i told him.
"i understand" he said and got up from my bed.
i'm going to bed i said to both of them.
early. that's not like you amber thought
yeah but i've been here long than you today plus i woke up earlier than you i told her
that's so very true she told me
yeah so night i said and blocked my thoughts.
i could still hear everything that was happening downstairs.
"edward what's wrong?" amber asked him.
"do you want a lie or me to be honested?" he asked her.
"the second one" she told him.
"well i do care about allie but bella. well we kissed upstairs and she pulled away from me and she thought about bella before i did" he confessed.
"yeah she does that most of the time" amber said
"how?" he asked
"well she won't fuck with another girls guys. i mean she knows your still with bella and doesn't want to mess with your relationship" amber explained to him.
i decided i might as well take a long bath. i mean i didn't want to think about anything and i didn't want to hear them talking downstairs. so i grabbed my clothes i was going to sleep in and took them with me to the bathroom. i love this house. it has a bathroom in every room. yes i missed this in forks.
i got the water ready and go into the nice warm water. this felt really good.
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Edward's P.O.V.
allie blocked all her thoughts from me. i wonder what she's doing?
"what do you think allie is doing?" i asked amber
"probly relaxing" she told me
"how?" i asked her
"probly drinking herself to sleep" she told me
"why would you think that?" i asked her
"that's allie or she's relaxing in her bathroom" she told me
"i think i like the second one better" i said
"yeah well are you going to choose betweem then or not?" amber asked me.
"i want allie in my life but i wouldn't know what to tell bella about us" i told amber
"which one to you want more?" she asked me
"when i kept away from allie it was like hell. all i wanted to do was see her" i told her
i decided to go check on allie. i just hope she doesn't freak out or anything.
"what about your girlfriend?" i asked him
"i wasn't thinking about her" he told me
"i know but i'm not that wrong of a person" i told him
"i know but i need to see if this is right. i mean i have many strong feeling for you and i know you feel the same way as me" he told me
before i knew it our hands met. this time our lips met. we both didn't want to break apart from this kiss but i knew this wasn't right. i had to stop this. i pulled away
"i can't do this" i told him
"what?" he asked me.
"i can't do this. you have a girlfriend and i'm not the person to fuck up your relationship" i told him.
"i understand" he said and got up from my bed.
i'm going to bed i said to both of them.
early. that's not like you amber thought
yeah but i've been here long than you today plus i woke up earlier than you i told her
that's so very true she told me
yeah so night i said and blocked my thoughts.
i could still hear everything that was happening downstairs.
"edward what's wrong?" amber asked him.
"do you want a lie or me to be honested?" he asked her.
"the second one" she told him.
"well i do care about allie but bella. well we kissed upstairs and she pulled away from me and she thought about bella before i did" he confessed.
"yeah she does that most of the time" amber said
"how?" he asked
"well she won't fuck with another girls guys. i mean she knows your still with bella and doesn't want to mess with your relationship" amber explained to him.
i decided i might as well take a long bath. i mean i didn't want to think about anything and i didn't want to hear them talking downstairs. so i grabbed my clothes i was going to sleep in and took them with me to the bathroom. i love this house. it has a bathroom in every room. yes i missed this in forks.
i got the water ready and go into the nice warm water. this felt really good.
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Edward's P.O.V.
allie blocked all her thoughts from me. i wonder what she's doing?
"what do you think allie is doing?" i asked amber
"probly relaxing" she told me
"how?" i asked her
"probly drinking herself to sleep" she told me
"why would you think that?" i asked her
"that's allie or she's relaxing in her bathroom" she told me
"i think i like the second one better" i said
"yeah well are you going to choose betweem then or not?" amber asked me.
"i want allie in my life but i wouldn't know what to tell bella about us" i told amber
"which one to you want more?" she asked me
"when i kept away from allie it was like hell. all i wanted to do was see her" i told her
i decided to go check on allie. i just hope she doesn't freak out or anything.
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