Unexpected

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I don’t know how long I stayed there…crying like that….but once I was done…..i was gasping for air.
I sat back trying to calm my breathing.
Once I was able to breathe has normally has humanely possible at the time I stood up, let go of Kevin’s hand and walked into his bathroom.
I looked at myself in the mirror to see my make-up smeared all over my face and streaks of black mascara and eyeliner down my face.
Just staring at myself in the mirror made me want to cry again.
So I decided to wash my face.
Once I had managed to get most of my face cleaned up I simply sat on the toilet and contemplated just staying here until someone else came.
But I didn’t have the heart to do that. So I reluctantly walked out of the bathroom and up to Kevin’s bed.
I sat down slowly and took a hold of his hand again; surprised that I didn’t start crying again.
Maybe….just maybe my eyes were all dried up and done shedding tears for now…….maybe……

~ 8 months ago ~

I sat on the table by our back window watching the rain pour down outside. It had been raining all day long it seemed. So long that I thought it would never stop. I was also surprised that Leslie and the Jo Bros weren’t already over here.
No sooner had I thought this did Leslie come bursting through the front door closely followed by Joe with Kevin and nick not too far behind.
Joe and Leslie immediately ran to the T.V. Nick made his way to Gabby in the kitchen where she was making hot chocolate while Kevin walked up to me.
He leaned against the table and stared out the window with me.
After awhile thought I couldn’t help but notice that Kevin’s hair was straight today.
And to be completely honest….I was missing his long dark brown curls.
“Why did you straighten you hair?”
Kevin looked up at me and shrugged his shoulders.
“I don’t know I just felt like it”
“Oh”
I went back to staring out the window. Eventually Kevin sat down across from me and pulled a deck of cards out of the pocket of his jacket.
“Wanna play Slash Rum?”
I couldn’t help but smile.
“Sure”
Kevin set up the game that only we knew how to play.
You see one rainy day years ago Kevin and I made up this crazy card game that we called Slash Rum. The name had absolutely nothing to do with the game. We had just picked two random words and put them together in a sentence.
We loved to play Slash Rum. It was a game only we got. it was just another crazy thing between us.
Our ability to come up with crazy ass stupid games….that we both loved.