A Kiss And I Will Surrender

Gerard’s POV

About half an hour later Mikey came running down the stairs.
“I’m back!” he yelled, grinning widely.
“Enjoy yourself?
“Yeh,” he said, getting himself some coffee
“Meghan’s coming around later,” Mikey said turning around and jumping, sending coffee flying everywhere, “Oh GOD! Sorry…it’s just that I almost faint every time I see you in pink!”
“I think she’s trying to turn me gay or something…I wonder what happened to all my stuff” I said
“It’s in my room…I love your Black Flag t-shirt,” Mikey said smirking
“You better give it back to me or DIE!” I growled
“It’s too small for me anyway,” Mikey murmured
“So when’s Meghan coming?” I asked
“Like now…I’ll see if I can get her down here…but I think that mum might not let her,” he told me
“I’m going to kill that woman one day!” I muttered darkly
“Don’t do it before Saturday…she’s taking me and Meghan to Candyland”
“But I don’t think I can wait that long!” I told him
“I think I just heard Meghan letting herself in…be right back,” he said before running up the stairs.

A few minutes later I heard someone running down the stairs…it was Meghan and Mikey followed slowly.

“HEY GEE!!! OH MY FRICKIN GOD!!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WEARING?!?!” Meghan exclaimed.
“Pink” I told her bluntly
“Thought it was about time that you came out of the closet” she stated
“What?” I ask astounded.
“I always knew that you were gay,” she told me
“I’m not gay!” I told her
“What’s with the pink then?” she asked eyeing the t-shirt with disgust
“Mum…I think she’s trying to turn me gay,” I muttered.
“Or she’s trying to say that it’s alright for you to come out of the closet” Meghan suggested.
“I’m not gay!” I defended
“Never said you were,”
“But you just did” I told her
“No I didn’t” she said
“Yeh you did”
“I didn’t”
“Did”
“Not”
“Stop fighting her Gerard, she’s had red bull and coffee, there’s no point” Mikey cut in
“Agreed,” I said nodding
“So what are we going to do?” Meghan asked, still looking at my t-shirt with disgust
“I have an idea…Mikey?” I smirked
“Yes?”
“Can you bring down some matches or a lighter?” I asked sweetly
“Why?” he asked
“And bring down a garbage bag, pencils, pens and paper…and my sketch book,” I continued ignoring his question
Mikey sighed, “FINE!”
Mikey ran up the stairs and came back with the supplies in his arms.
“Here,” he said dumping them on the floor.
“Thanks,” I said while taking the pink t-shirt off
“What the hell are you doing? Meghan’s here” Mikey said shocked
“She doesn’t mind…do you?” I asked Meghan
“No…but I must say, you do have bigger muscles than Mikey,” she said
“Shut up!” Mikey hissed
“And why does Meghan know what you look like without a top on?” I asked smiling
“We went swimming,” Mikey said quickly…too quickly
“You’re scared that there are sharks in pools” I said raising an eyebrow.
“Shut up Mr I can’t swim!” Mikey snapped
“You did not just say that,” I said glaring at him
“I didn’t” he said quietly
“Exactly,” I grumbled

I put the pink t-shirt on the ground; I then remembered I needed something else.
“CRAP! Mikey can you get some newspaper or something?” I asked
“Yes Master,” Mikey said bowing to me
Mikey went and got the newspaper and put it on the ground.
“Thanks,”
I put the t-shirt on the newspaper.
“Watch this” I said, an evil grin forming on my face.
I opened the lighter and set the t-shirt on fire. The glow of the fire reflected through out my room.
“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!?!” Mikey yelled
“Is that smoke I smell? You better not be smoking Gerard!” Mum yelled from upstairs
“I’m not” I yelled back
Mum came walking down the stairs. Her eyes widened when she saw the fire.
“WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!” she screamed
“I hate pink” I stated
“Mikey run upstairs and get a bucket of water,” she ordered.
Mikey got the bucket and threw it on the fire. The fire went out.
“Get another one,” Mum ordered
“Why?” Mikey asked confused
“Just do it” Mum snapped
Mikey got the bucket of water and gave it to Mum. She stood still for a second before throwing it at me. The water was ice cold and I started shivering.
“What the hell?” I said, my teeth starting to chatter
“YOU STUPID IDIOT! WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?” she yelled at me
“Well, I felt I couldn’t take another day inside this place. From silent dreams we never wake and in this promise that we’ll make.” I told her
“Mikey, take Meghan upstairs and watch a movie or something,” she said the anger clear in her voice.
“Ok…come on Meghan,” Mikey said, pulling Meghan up the stairs.

“Gerard, you have to stop this,” she told me
“Stop what?” I asked, playing dumb
“EVERYTHING, you can’t just burn clothes!” she yelled
“But I did,” I said matter-of-factly
“Gerard…I just don’t know what to do with you anymore, I’ll let you be, I’ll give you all your stuff back and I’ll let you do what you want, but I don’t want Mikey to turn out like you, so I have some rules which you must obey for Mikey’s sake” her voice portraying…defeat?
“What are they?” I asked, I didn’t want Mikey to end up like me either
“You can’t kill yourself, I don’t want you putting dark things into his head and I don’t want you to let him near any alcohol or drugs.” She said sternly
“Mum, I’m not stupid” I stated
“Yes you are”
“Let me finish! I’m not stupid enough to let my little brother become like me…Mikey’s not just my little brother, he’s my best friend and he’s the only thing I live for!” I told her
“What about Lily?” she asked
“What did I say about saying her name?” I snarled
“What happened, Gerard? She was such a nice girl,” mum asked softly
I laughed a wicked, sick, evil laugh.
“Lily, nice, NEVER…she’s an evil traitorous slut!”
“How about you go upstairs and get your things? You can paint your room back to black again,” she told me, sighing
“Whatever…it’s not like I’ll be here long,” I muttered under my breath
Mum sighed and started walking out of the room, before she stopped.
“Oh…you have a visitor, I’ll send them down”
She then left the room.

I wonder who my visitor is, it wouldn’t be one of the gang because they would come down straight away and Mum would have said which one it was. I heard my door open and I turned to face my visitor. When I saw their face what was left of my heart crumbled and all the pain came back.