But It's Better If You Do
ryan, i love you!
pt. 15
I got ready and looked outside. There was a black stretch hummerzine waiting for me outside and my heart fluttered into 1,000,000 tiny little butterflies.
“y’all I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve him. He’s the greatest guy in the world.”
“yes you do. You deserve all that you can get.” Chasity reassured me.
“thanks” I walked outside and ryan helped me in the tank like thing.
“you look beautiful”
“thanks for the dress and everything”
“you deserve it”
“do not that’s just what you think”
“no that’s what I know I love you”
“I love you more than life itself”
“I love you more than words can tell”
“me too”
since we were in California it wasn’t hard to find one of the swankiest hotels in the world. the ritz.
“oh my goodness you did not have to do this for me”
“yes I did”
“what if we broke up tomorrow”
“it’d all be worth it. now don’t say that”
“ok I won’t. I don’t want it to happen anyways. So what’s the plan?”
“we eat and talk and junk like that and then we go to the room”
“you got us a room!!! I’m not putting out til I’m married, boy!”
“relax I would never ever force you to do anything you wouldn’t wanna do, plus that wasn’t my plan anyway”
“dude, I love you!”
“I love you too”
I grinned and we walked to the restaurant part of the hotel.
“I’m not used to ordering in a place like this”
“well I’ll order for you if you want me too”
“so sweet”
“do you like chicken?”
“yea”
“do you want to eat it?”
“sure”
ryan ordered for us and we ate it then we went to the room.
“why did you get this room anyways?”
“to get away from the ruckus of the bus.”
“oh thanks for this...omg I have no pajamas”
“check again”
I opened a drawer.
“omg you have my clandestine pajama pants and mcr shirt and...my take it away hoodie, black t-shirt, and jeans?”
“clothes for tomorrow”
“oh”
“wanna watch t.v.?”
“what’s on?”
“ummmmm...” he flipped thru the channels.
“’It’”
“what?”
“turn it back. ‘it’s’ on”
“what’s on?”
“’it’”
“what’s that?”
“a killing clown”
“ooookay”
“just watch it”
“ok, whatever”
we sat there and watched ‘it’ until it was over. Me occasionally grabbing ryan and then ryan wincing in pain everytime I did. But it ended.
“sorry about that.”
“it’s ok I understand”
“good movie tho”
“yup”
“I’m tired”
“well lets go to sleep”
“kay”
we went to bed and I slept quite good actually, especially since ryan was there. I woke up to the smell of blueberry pancakes. I felt around the bed. No ryan.
“good morning mah darling” ryan woke me up the rest of the way.
“good morning to you too mah gorgeus.” I replied.
He slapped a couple pancakes on a plate and handed it to me and I started eating as did he.
“fank yous”
“my pleasure, so about that question of mine. I was going to ask you last night but I forgot.”
“yes please tell me”
“I was wondering if after tour you’d like to come to las Vegas and los angles with me and...live w/ me?” he sounded nervous, and all I could think to do was cover him w/ hugs and kisses.
“I’ll take that as a yes”
“omg yes”
we hugged, got our things together, ate, left, and went back to the buses.
“michelle I have some bad news for you.” Sara said as soon as I got on the bus.
“not now I need to say in happy mood”
“I’m leaving tour”
“what it’s over on in like 6 days” I exclaimed wondering why in the world she’d leave like this.
“I got am acting job in England. I broke up w/ pete”
“and I know why. Your scared Daniel radcliffe will be there” I replied matter-of-factly.
“actually I know he’ll be there. He’s in the movie too”
“I just wish you’d stay”
“it’s starts in like 4 days. I should have left sooner but I put it off”
“ok well...let’s just enjoy these last couple days”
“yes lets”
we linked arms, walked to the venue and went backstage.
“does anyone else know?”
“just fall out boy and chasity”
“should we tell anyone else?”
“of course”
“oh right stupid question”
“there is no such thing as a stupid question...”
“but there is such thing as stupid people” we said together and laughed
“I’m gonna miss you”
“I’m gonna miss you too but we’ll see each other again and you kno that”
“yea I know...so Britain”
“yea Britain”
“hey, look up lucy while your at it for me! Please”
“ok”
chasity walked in.
“have you told her yet?” she asked sara.
“yes I have”
“we wish you wouldn’t go”
“I know, I know but I’m going anyways.
"fine”
well speaking of telling people things. I have an announcement.”
“kay. Let’s here it!”
“I’m going to las Vegas and los angles w/ ryan after tour”
“wow that’s awesome” sara said clearly happy for me.
“I’m going w/ brendon too. Omg!”
“this is awesome! I love my life!”
“we know” sara and chasity exclaimed.
“sorry but I’m in love and I can’t help but tell you so build a bridge and get over it.”
“ok but if we start doing that you have to get over it deal?”
“deal!”
“chas, what were the results on the test?” I whispered in her ear...
I got ready and looked outside. There was a black stretch hummerzine waiting for me outside and my heart fluttered into 1,000,000 tiny little butterflies.
“y’all I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve him. He’s the greatest guy in the world.”
“yes you do. You deserve all that you can get.” Chasity reassured me.
“thanks” I walked outside and ryan helped me in the tank like thing.
“you look beautiful”
“thanks for the dress and everything”
“you deserve it”
“do not that’s just what you think”
“no that’s what I know I love you”
“I love you more than life itself”
“I love you more than words can tell”
“me too”
since we were in California it wasn’t hard to find one of the swankiest hotels in the world. the ritz.
“oh my goodness you did not have to do this for me”
“yes I did”
“what if we broke up tomorrow”
“it’d all be worth it. now don’t say that”
“ok I won’t. I don’t want it to happen anyways. So what’s the plan?”
“we eat and talk and junk like that and then we go to the room”
“you got us a room!!! I’m not putting out til I’m married, boy!”
“relax I would never ever force you to do anything you wouldn’t wanna do, plus that wasn’t my plan anyway”
“dude, I love you!”
“I love you too”
I grinned and we walked to the restaurant part of the hotel.
“I’m not used to ordering in a place like this”
“well I’ll order for you if you want me too”
“so sweet”
“do you like chicken?”
“yea”
“do you want to eat it?”
“sure”
ryan ordered for us and we ate it then we went to the room.
“why did you get this room anyways?”
“to get away from the ruckus of the bus.”
“oh thanks for this...omg I have no pajamas”
“check again”
I opened a drawer.
“omg you have my clandestine pajama pants and mcr shirt and...my take it away hoodie, black t-shirt, and jeans?”
“clothes for tomorrow”
“oh”
“wanna watch t.v.?”
“what’s on?”
“ummmmm...” he flipped thru the channels.
“’It’”
“what?”
“turn it back. ‘it’s’ on”
“what’s on?”
“’it’”
“what’s that?”
“a killing clown”
“ooookay”
“just watch it”
“ok, whatever”
we sat there and watched ‘it’ until it was over. Me occasionally grabbing ryan and then ryan wincing in pain everytime I did. But it ended.
“sorry about that.”
“it’s ok I understand”
“good movie tho”
“yup”
“I’m tired”
“well lets go to sleep”
“kay”
we went to bed and I slept quite good actually, especially since ryan was there. I woke up to the smell of blueberry pancakes. I felt around the bed. No ryan.
“good morning mah darling” ryan woke me up the rest of the way.
“good morning to you too mah gorgeus.” I replied.
He slapped a couple pancakes on a plate and handed it to me and I started eating as did he.
“fank yous”
“my pleasure, so about that question of mine. I was going to ask you last night but I forgot.”
“yes please tell me”
“I was wondering if after tour you’d like to come to las Vegas and los angles with me and...live w/ me?” he sounded nervous, and all I could think to do was cover him w/ hugs and kisses.
“I’ll take that as a yes”
“omg yes”
we hugged, got our things together, ate, left, and went back to the buses.
“michelle I have some bad news for you.” Sara said as soon as I got on the bus.
“not now I need to say in happy mood”
“I’m leaving tour”
“what it’s over on in like 6 days” I exclaimed wondering why in the world she’d leave like this.
“I got am acting job in England. I broke up w/ pete”
“and I know why. Your scared Daniel radcliffe will be there” I replied matter-of-factly.
“actually I know he’ll be there. He’s in the movie too”
“I just wish you’d stay”
“it’s starts in like 4 days. I should have left sooner but I put it off”
“ok well...let’s just enjoy these last couple days”
“yes lets”
we linked arms, walked to the venue and went backstage.
“does anyone else know?”
“just fall out boy and chasity”
“should we tell anyone else?”
“of course”
“oh right stupid question”
“there is no such thing as a stupid question...”
“but there is such thing as stupid people” we said together and laughed
“I’m gonna miss you”
“I’m gonna miss you too but we’ll see each other again and you kno that”
“yea I know...so Britain”
“yea Britain”
“hey, look up lucy while your at it for me! Please”
“ok”
chasity walked in.
“have you told her yet?” she asked sara.
“yes I have”
“we wish you wouldn’t go”
“I know, I know but I’m going anyways.
"fine”
well speaking of telling people things. I have an announcement.”
“kay. Let’s here it!”
“I’m going to las Vegas and los angles w/ ryan after tour”
“wow that’s awesome” sara said clearly happy for me.
“I’m going w/ brendon too. Omg!”
“this is awesome! I love my life!”
“we know” sara and chasity exclaimed.
“sorry but I’m in love and I can’t help but tell you so build a bridge and get over it.”
“ok but if we start doing that you have to get over it deal?”
“deal!”
“chas, what were the results on the test?” I whispered in her ear...