Can I Ever Really Love You

I got in the car and drove towards New York. I was dreading it. I didn’t want to see my father anymore but this is definitely the last time. Even if I have to leave this state I will never see him again. so I arrived at the jail only 3 hours later. I went to the visiting area and waited for my dad to come out. I waited only a few minutes then I saw him. my heart rate went up I was getting butterflies in my stomach and I just wanted this to be over.
“Sarah what brings you here” he asked
“you know why” I said coldly
“no I don’t why are you here” he asked again
“im here to stop you from hurting me more” I said coldly
“im in here how can I hurt you” he asked
“simple get some of your guys on the outside beat the living crap out of my boyfriend” I said angrily
“how do you know it was my guys” he said
“I know what you did to Justin dad I know who you had kill him” I said
“you loved Justin right” he asked dumbly
“yea dad and you took him away from me” I said with and attitude in my voice
“do you love your boyfriend” he asked
“no he’s just to pass the time away” I lied
“oh” he said
“so are you gonna back off” I asked
“no I know your lieing to me from what im told your so in love with this man that you would die for him” he said coldly
“no dad that was justing not frank me and him have nothing to offer eachother and plus im planning on leaving soon” I said
“oh what with frank” he asked
“no im gonna get away from here and never come back to see you again” I said and stood up
“if you love me youll stop this and let me live my life who cares if I have a boyfriend its not like im gonna fall in love again” I said and walked away
“sarah” my dad said I turned around and saw him a few feet away from me
“ill give up if you actually show me that you don’t love him” he said
“ ok I will” I said and left. Shit how am I gonna show that I don’t love frank when I really do. I screwed. I got in my car and drove home. I got home and went straight to mikeys house. When I got in his house frank ran and hugged me and we fell to the ground cause I wasn’t expecting it.
“frnak I need to talk to you” I said and his face went serious
“ok” he said and he helped me up
“well be back” I said and me and frank went up to mikeys room to make it private. Once the door was shut i started looking around the room.
“k sarah get it over with” he said
“hold on let me check the room out.” I said and went to the windows and made sure they were closed and walked around looking for anything that might show that there was someone spying on me.
“k frank im leaving town” I said
“what why” he asked
“casue I cant live here anymore cause if I stay youll get hurt and I don’t want that” I said not looking at him.
“sarah what are you saying that were over” he said
I turned this time to look at him.
“no frank I have to make my dad and whoever is watching me thing I don’t love you and that im moving out of this state.” I said with out realizing I spilled to much
“what do I have to do with your dad” he asked
“simple I stay with you and he thinks I am in love with you and he kills you with that group that beat you up” I said
“sarah it was a one time thing” he said
“not to what my dad said he said hell make sure they kill you” I said letting some tears fall.
“sarah don’t leave please” frank said walking over to me so he was closer.
“no matter what frank I love you to death” I said
“sarah don’t talk like this is the end” frank said
“frank if its ok with you id like to pre tend were not going out anymore but we still are” I said trying to get ride of the tears.
“I don’t want to I want to show that you’re my girl” he said
“please frank just till I get my dad off of us” I said
“sarah why are you scared” he asked
“because of what my dad has done to every single boyfriend I’ve had” I said
“what he do” he asked
“my very first boyfriend my dad injured and then Justin he didn’t know we were going out and so when he asked me to live with him and to promise him I would marry him my dad went crazy and injured him but he wanted to kill him so he had four guys come over to my house and kill him while he was injured. And now my dad found out im going out with you and he wants to kill you. I told him I didn’t love you just so he would back off but that’s not gonna help at all he said I have to show him I don’t love you” I said now letting all the tears come down..
“sarah don’t cry” frank said and grabbed him and just held me close
“sarah ill do anything for you” he said and kissed me
“thanks frank…… I wont leave for a while im gonna leave now while I have tears” I said
“k I love you sarah ill call you later” he said
“I love you too but don’t call for all I know the lines are tapped” I said
“oh” is all he said
“if you want to hang out have mikey or gerard call me and say they want to hang out and you just happen to be there too. But make sure they don’t say that cause then my dad will still come and kill you” I said letting more tears drop
“ok ill have mikey call you tonight ok” he said
“ok im gonna go now” I said and walked out of the room. Once the door was open I ran down the stairs crying.
“sarah whats wrong” mikey asked
“nothing” I said and opened up the door and ran out I got in my car and cried some more. I drove home and then my phone rang.