Can I Ever Really Love You
You Can't Be Happy Unless I'm Happy
A few days later my dad came back.
“Sarah im sorry I shouldn’t have hit you” he said
“um” I said
“I was just really pissed because you shouldn’t do that to me” he said
“do what” I asked
“make me mad you know ill hurt you and yet you still get me angry” he said
“dad why do you do this to me” I asked
“cause I want you to be independent you don’t need a man in your life and no man needs you in there life” he said and this time it hurt when he actually said what I feared.
“so that’s why your making me alone and I cant even be friends with the people I want anymore. Im not only independent but I have no friends and my co workers hate me” I said
“well that’s not my fault for your co workers hating you” he said
“dad this is all cause of mom isn’t it” I asked
“no” he said
“dad mom left you so what she died a few years later get over it” I said “and she didn’t just leave you she left me to” I said
“I glad your mother died but the thing is I had the men I know kill her” he said
“what” I said
“she deserved to die for putting me through so much and then just packing up and leaving.” He said
“dad leave me alone…. And everyone ive ever cared for.” I said
“I cant” he said
“yes you can just trust me ill be independent I just want to have some friends” I said
“you can be friends with a few people” he said
“dad I can be independent with lots of friends” I said
“ fine I approve of Jenni and Johnny and ray and matt” he said
“ok and what about mikey gerard and…frank” I said
“I don’t know about frank” he said
“why” I asked
“because you loved him” he said
“yea key word loved he hates me now cause I haven’t talked to him in 2 months and I just left him” I said
“oh well if he hates you that’s different” he said
“dad fuck you….. I mean dad that’s not good” I said
“say that to me again” he said
“ dad frank will always be my friend I don’t know why but we will be” I said
“…….”
“dad just let me be I promise you ill be fine and if im not ill come find you and tell you your right” I said
“fine” he said and then there was a knock at the door. I went an answered it and there was mikey.
“Mikey?” I asked
“Sarah I found you frank told me you moved to Texas and then I looked you up” he said
“howd frank know I moved to Texas……oh mikey come in and meet my DAD” I said saying dad so he understood not to say anything.
“oh ok” he said
“dad this is mikey, mikey this is my dad” I said
“nice to meet you mikey… .you came alone right” my dad asked
“yea no one wanted anything to do with Sarah since she just left with out saying goodbye” mikey said
“oh so you came to say goodbye to her” my dad asked
“um … no I wanted to see if she was ok” mikey said
(ok im making up my dads name its gonna be Albert)
“do you love my daughter”
“no were just friends” mikey said
“oh good” Albert said (my dad)
“k dad you can go now” I said
“I want to meet mikey more” he said
“um ok” I said and mikey and my dad talked for awhile. My dad got up and walked to the door.
“Sarah doll”
“yes dad” I said
“I think you should go out with mikey hes a nice young man”
“are you serious dad” I asked
“yea he wont hurt you and I wont hurt him if you do decide to marry him” he said
“um thanks dad” I said
“yea no problem alright by Sarah doll bye mikey” he said
“bye” me and mikey said and I shut the door.
“Mikey what the fuck did you tell him” I asked
“ I just told him about myself and how I first met you… do you remember” he asked
“how could I that’s when I decided not to kill myself just cause I wanted to get to know everyone except frank better” I said
“yea well you remember what made you come over to us” he asked
“yea that creepy guy following me and how did my dad find this story” I asked
“he was happy that we acted like we were your friends and that’s when he said something about me protecting you” mikey said
“oh… so my dad softened up for you… weird” I said
“so Sarah since your father is ok with it do you wanna be my girlfriend” mikey asked
“yes but if anything happens to you its your fault” I said
“ok now you have to move back to jersey” mikey said
“no im not going back im staying away from frank… plus if he found out that were going out now he would kill me…. and you” I said
“Sarah I think hes already kill…..killing all of us now” mikey said
“what were you gonna say before you changed your words” I asked
“hes already killed his cat” mikey said
“his cat when did he get a cat” I asked
“like 2 days after you left” mikey said
“oh …. Um mikey can you stay out here long” I asked
“yea” he said and we talked about everything except frank.
little did i know this wasnt mikey way this was an imposter.
“Sarah im sorry I shouldn’t have hit you” he said
“um” I said
“I was just really pissed because you shouldn’t do that to me” he said
“do what” I asked
“make me mad you know ill hurt you and yet you still get me angry” he said
“dad why do you do this to me” I asked
“cause I want you to be independent you don’t need a man in your life and no man needs you in there life” he said and this time it hurt when he actually said what I feared.
“so that’s why your making me alone and I cant even be friends with the people I want anymore. Im not only independent but I have no friends and my co workers hate me” I said
“well that’s not my fault for your co workers hating you” he said
“dad this is all cause of mom isn’t it” I asked
“no” he said
“dad mom left you so what she died a few years later get over it” I said “and she didn’t just leave you she left me to” I said
“I glad your mother died but the thing is I had the men I know kill her” he said
“what” I said
“she deserved to die for putting me through so much and then just packing up and leaving.” He said
“dad leave me alone…. And everyone ive ever cared for.” I said
“I cant” he said
“yes you can just trust me ill be independent I just want to have some friends” I said
“you can be friends with a few people” he said
“dad I can be independent with lots of friends” I said
“ fine I approve of Jenni and Johnny and ray and matt” he said
“ok and what about mikey gerard and…frank” I said
“I don’t know about frank” he said
“why” I asked
“because you loved him” he said
“yea key word loved he hates me now cause I haven’t talked to him in 2 months and I just left him” I said
“oh well if he hates you that’s different” he said
“dad fuck you….. I mean dad that’s not good” I said
“say that to me again” he said
“ dad frank will always be my friend I don’t know why but we will be” I said
“…….”
“dad just let me be I promise you ill be fine and if im not ill come find you and tell you your right” I said
“fine” he said and then there was a knock at the door. I went an answered it and there was mikey.
“Mikey?” I asked
“Sarah I found you frank told me you moved to Texas and then I looked you up” he said
“howd frank know I moved to Texas……oh mikey come in and meet my DAD” I said saying dad so he understood not to say anything.
“oh ok” he said
“dad this is mikey, mikey this is my dad” I said
“nice to meet you mikey… .you came alone right” my dad asked
“yea no one wanted anything to do with Sarah since she just left with out saying goodbye” mikey said
“oh so you came to say goodbye to her” my dad asked
“um … no I wanted to see if she was ok” mikey said
(ok im making up my dads name its gonna be Albert)
“do you love my daughter”
“no were just friends” mikey said
“oh good” Albert said (my dad)
“k dad you can go now” I said
“I want to meet mikey more” he said
“um ok” I said and mikey and my dad talked for awhile. My dad got up and walked to the door.
“Sarah doll”
“yes dad” I said
“I think you should go out with mikey hes a nice young man”
“are you serious dad” I asked
“yea he wont hurt you and I wont hurt him if you do decide to marry him” he said
“um thanks dad” I said
“yea no problem alright by Sarah doll bye mikey” he said
“bye” me and mikey said and I shut the door.
“Mikey what the fuck did you tell him” I asked
“ I just told him about myself and how I first met you… do you remember” he asked
“how could I that’s when I decided not to kill myself just cause I wanted to get to know everyone except frank better” I said
“yea well you remember what made you come over to us” he asked
“yea that creepy guy following me and how did my dad find this story” I asked
“he was happy that we acted like we were your friends and that’s when he said something about me protecting you” mikey said
“oh… so my dad softened up for you… weird” I said
“so Sarah since your father is ok with it do you wanna be my girlfriend” mikey asked
“yes but if anything happens to you its your fault” I said
“ok now you have to move back to jersey” mikey said
“no im not going back im staying away from frank… plus if he found out that were going out now he would kill me…. and you” I said
“Sarah I think hes already kill…..killing all of us now” mikey said
“what were you gonna say before you changed your words” I asked
“hes already killed his cat” mikey said
“his cat when did he get a cat” I asked
“like 2 days after you left” mikey said
“oh …. Um mikey can you stay out here long” I asked
“yea” he said and we talked about everything except frank.
little did i know this wasnt mikey way this was an imposter.