Can I Ever Really Love You
Moving Again
My dad came back to my apartment today and yelled at me for hurting his friend. I just ignored him. I had plans set that he didn’t know about. My dad left angry and after he left I called gerard.
“hey is gerard there” I aked
“yea hold on” donna said
“hello” gerard said
“hey gerard its sarah”
“oh hi waz up” he said
“um I wanted to know if you could come to texas and help me with somethings” I said
“sure what kind of things” he asked
“um… packing and cleaning and moving things” I said
“were you going now” he asked
“back to jersey I miss everyone so much” I said
“oh ok well were do you live in texas” he asked
“corpus Christi I live right by the gulf” I said
“ok well ill come now if you want” he said
“yea that be great oh and gerard don’t tell anyone im coming back I want it to be a surprise” I said
“ok ill call you when Im in corpus” he said
“ok bye” I said and hung up. I decided I wanted to take a walk so I went to the beach and walked along it. I walked barefoot and felt the warm water hit my feet. I saw some sea turtles making a nest and then laying there eggs and leaving. I walked over to were the eggs were and I put a towel over it so people knew there were eggs there. There were crabs too but I avoided them. I started to twalk back and I looked at the sunset. It was beautiful and breath taking. The whole time I was walking I thought how happy im gonna be when I get back to Jersey. I went home and fell asleep right away. But I had a nightmare waiting for me.
“dad no leave frank alone its me you want” I said
“no I want you to suffer” he said
“ill suffer no matter what” I said
“sarah ill die to keep you safe” frank said
“no frank I’m suppose to die to keep you safe” I said
“its ok sarah I love you”
“I love you too” I said
“ill always love you” was the last thing frank said because my dad slit his throat. I ran to frank holding his body crying.
“ ill be with you in the end” I said and kissed his lips and that’s when I woke up screaming.
Stay low
Soft, dark, and dreamless
Far beneath my nightmares
And loneliness
I hate me
For breathing without you
I don’t want to feel
Anymore for you
Grieving for you
I’m not grieving for you
Nothing real love can’t undo
And though I may have lost my way
All paths lead straight to you
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
Halo
Blinding wall between us
Melt away and leave us alone again
Humming, haunted somewhere out there
I believe out love can
See us through in death
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
You’re not alone
No matter what they told you
You’re not alone
I’ll be right beside you forevermore
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
And as we lay in silent bliss
I know you remember me
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
When it was over I cried it was saying everything I was think. I’ve never felt this way about anyone not even Justin.
“hey is gerard there” I aked
“yea hold on” donna said
“hello” gerard said
“hey gerard its sarah”
“oh hi waz up” he said
“um I wanted to know if you could come to texas and help me with somethings” I said
“sure what kind of things” he asked
“um… packing and cleaning and moving things” I said
“were you going now” he asked
“back to jersey I miss everyone so much” I said
“oh ok well were do you live in texas” he asked
“corpus Christi I live right by the gulf” I said
“ok well ill come now if you want” he said
“yea that be great oh and gerard don’t tell anyone im coming back I want it to be a surprise” I said
“ok ill call you when Im in corpus” he said
“ok bye” I said and hung up. I decided I wanted to take a walk so I went to the beach and walked along it. I walked barefoot and felt the warm water hit my feet. I saw some sea turtles making a nest and then laying there eggs and leaving. I walked over to were the eggs were and I put a towel over it so people knew there were eggs there. There were crabs too but I avoided them. I started to twalk back and I looked at the sunset. It was beautiful and breath taking. The whole time I was walking I thought how happy im gonna be when I get back to Jersey. I went home and fell asleep right away. But I had a nightmare waiting for me.
“dad no leave frank alone its me you want” I said
“no I want you to suffer” he said
“ill suffer no matter what” I said
“sarah ill die to keep you safe” frank said
“no frank I’m suppose to die to keep you safe” I said
“its ok sarah I love you”
“I love you too” I said
“ill always love you” was the last thing frank said because my dad slit his throat. I ran to frank holding his body crying.
“ ill be with you in the end” I said and kissed his lips and that’s when I woke up screaming.
Stay low
Soft, dark, and dreamless
Far beneath my nightmares
And loneliness
I hate me
For breathing without you
I don’t want to feel
Anymore for you
Grieving for you
I’m not grieving for you
Nothing real love can’t undo
And though I may have lost my way
All paths lead straight to you
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
Halo
Blinding wall between us
Melt away and leave us alone again
Humming, haunted somewhere out there
I believe out love can
See us through in death
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
You’re not alone
No matter what they told you
You’re not alone
I’ll be right beside you forevermore
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
And as we lay in silent bliss
I know you remember me
I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There’s room inside for two
And I’m not grieving for you
I’m coming for you
When it was over I cried it was saying everything I was think. I’ve never felt this way about anyone not even Justin.