Something More

I lightly pushed Nick away

"Maybe you should go home" I told him

Nick looked confused

"Why? I thought we were having a good time?" he asked confused

"We...were Nick... I just I dunno after my mom...." I began

"no... whats really wrong?" he asked me

"nothing...."

"D tell me..." he told me

"it's nothing really..."

"D"

"Alright, alright... Its about our shower and you didn't use a condom, I've been freaking out and-.' i got cut off by him

"D..."

"what? I told you"

he looked at my doorway, my mom heard everything I said and she went downstairs

" you see why I didn't want to tell you!" I told him

"D listen to me.." he grabbed my arms " I know you're scared but.."

"No Nick.. Im ugh.. Im mad at you!" I said

"Look I know I made a mistake, everyone makes mistakes though..." he told me

"you make too many" I said in a small voice

" I'm sorry!" Nick was trying to keep his cool... " it was one stupid mistake... SORRY IF YOU'RE MISS PERFECT" he yelled

yeah, he lost it.

" Its not even that! You don't think before you act, ever!!" I told him

"YOU SURE WEREN'T STOPPING ME!" he said

"you still should've known..." I said quietly

Nick took his hat off in frustration

I knew he wanted to hit something, his fists were clenched

" a condom isn't safe either." he told me

"then lets just stop having sex all together,." I told him

that made him furious

"Well If you want to stop having sex with me, why dont I stop dating you!" He blurted out but then looked like he regretted what he had just said.

"so... our relationship is only about sex?" I asked him

"No thats not what I meant..." he told me

"yes you did.." I said avoiding eye contact with him

"D! Look Im sorry for the condom thing Im sorry for the sex thing. Im sorry Im sorry IM SORRY!! How many times do I have to say it?" he asked

"Nick... I wanna know, if you are just.. using me for sex...." I said ignoring his question

"you know what D.... Yes... yes I'm just using you for ssex! thats all you good for..." he said in a sarcastic tone.

"Nick...."

"WHAT!??"

"can you tell me the truth?"

he looked at me

"alright...I used you... once and that was because I felt like I needed you, kevin was gone, I was upset,,, it was only once.. but... it was out of love..."

"what? out of love?"

"yes... you know I love you..."

"Do I?"

"you should..." he grabbed my hands

"I do love you..." he told me " I have always loved you"