Are You Afraid Of Being Alone?

"Wow" I whispered...Now the guys, they sure were going to give a hard time, but that's why I love those motherfuckers.

"So Syn, tell us your side of the story" Zack said laughing as soon as I entered the bus. I glared at him and then shrugged

"Her boyfriend was about to hit her and I was there, of course I wasn't going to let him hit her" I said in a duh-tone. I've always wondered why it was me the one who they would always mess with when it came to girls

"I like her, she seems nice" Johnny said holding a beer in his left hand, I shrugged again

"Syn makes it seem like he doesn't care but he's all red" Jimmy sang and we all burst into laughters

"Rev you're so stupid" Matt said throwing an empty can to him, we all laughed and I was surprised they didn't said much

"So I'm surprised you didn't hit on her or something..." Zacky said texting from his cell, I sighed, me and my big mouth

"Dude she just broke up with her boyfriend in the worst way, I'm a douche but I know my limits" I said opening a bottle of beer

"But you will ask her out..." Matt said slowly, sitting down in the couch

Yes "I don't know, she's cute, maybe" I said, drinking from the bottle, feeling the bittersweet taste down my throat

"Isn't she like young?" Johnny asked, finishing his beer

"She's a year younger than you" I said shrugging

"Then maybe I should hit on her" Johnny said grinning, I glared at him

"Touchy, touchy" He said laughing, I smiled...I seriously couldn't take my mind off her, her bright eyes captivated me in a strange form, her fucking smile was driving me crazy...and her body...Ugh the only thought of it made me out of my mind

"She have a Myspace" Zack said after a few minutes...I looked at him

"Yeah I'll add her, she looks pretty in the picture" Matt looked behind him and nodded

"Yeah she is pretty hot, Syn"Matt said, I just shrugged, hot? HOT? she was fucking beautiful.

-
The tour was finally over, and I've been in touch with Billy, after a few weeks we started to call each others almost every night after our shows, and no matter how unbelievable this sounds, I haven't had a one night stand since I met her, a lot of girls have tried to get with me, but I want more to talk to Billy that to have sex, which is very, very strange.

Tonight I was meeting Billy in a small café, just the two of us, and I felt like I was in high school all over again. Getting ready to meet the girl I like, feeling nervous. I swear I started laughing at myself when I noticed I actually was nervous. All the guy's were with their family but I already spent time with them, they can wait a little longer. I laughed every time I remembered my dad's words
"Brian, what the heck? I think the last time I saw you this nervous was when Clarissa McKein asked you to spring-dance in middle school"
I remember I almost fainted when she did, she was one of the prettiest girls on school, I started to laugh again, I really felt like a kid.

I drove to the place we were meeting, she was already there, looking more beautiful than ever, her hair was a little bit longer, and she was wearing a plain white tee with jeans, and just the simplicity of that made her more attractive, when she looked at me she waved and smiled, she looked adorable. I laughed and walked over to her

"Hey" I didn't even get to finish the words when she wrapped her tiny arms around my neck, I stood dumbfounded at first but then I wrapped my own arms around her waist, she let go and smiled

"Hey there" her voice...She's seriously driving you nuts with just a hey? You need a hooker.

"Come, this place makes delicious brownies,and I want hear all about the tour" She said grabbing my hand and leading me into the place.

After sitting down and order we started to talk about the tour, she told me her ex-boyfriend called to apologize but she said no to him, I was happy about that one. We talked about her new job as a photographer in a magazine and how she wanted to make a photo shoot with us, I said yes of course, we spent like that like an hour or so, talking about the most random stuff you can ever imagine, it has been so long since I actually sat in a place to talk with a girl.

I would always said something 'seductive', sex, and then bye. The only serious girlfriends I've ever had dumped me be cause I would always cheat on them, but with Billy was different, she was different. Something I've never seen, her beauty should be one of the greatest wonders of the world. Her eyes, her mouth...so appealing.

"Brian!" I looked at the tiny hand waving in front of my face "Hello?" I looked at billy, who was laughing

"What were you thinking off, you looked like you were in another planet" She said smiling at me, I smiled back

"Nothing I just kind of went off" I said, looking at her, "Billy" She looked up at me, all her attention towards me "I like you, a lot" I said, our eyes locked. She looked down

"I like you too Brian but..."

"But what?"

"I don't think this is a good idea, I mean, lets just be friends" she still wasn't looking at me, I knew she wasn't being honest, I knew she liked me, either way she wouldn't have been there, with me and only me

"Look at me and tell me you don't want to be with me" I said softly, she looked up with determination, she opened her mouth to say it, but no sound came out of it. I smirked knowing I had her

I quickly stood up, grabbed her hand bringing her with me, we stood there, our body's touching and my face inches away from hers, she looked at me wide eyed, I smirked one more time before pressing my lips against hers.

This kiss was something I've ever imagine, her mouth synchronized with mine as soon as they met, my hands holding her face, she sighed into the kiss and I smiled, I knew I had her...

But if I had known what I was getting myself into, I think I would have walked away before my heart started to beat so hard, be cause I'm a coward. And I will always be one. Though I don't regret it, being with her was the most beautiful thing I've done. And no matter how much I'd love to, I don't regret it at all.