The Guy Next Door!

Cassie’s POV

I tried to keep my sobbing to a minimum, because that that isn’t what my mum would have wanted of me to do, she would want me to suck it up and do something about it, well i wasn’t doing such a good job of it, thankfully i had sean by my side helping me get out.

All i could hear was the voice of a very hearty woman with a very persuasive opinion, Sean's mum. While she was giving the reporters and wannabe reporters an ear full, sean was running me from my back door, to his back door, trying to make sure that none of them saw me... fingers crossed none of them did, and finally into his room, closing the blinds and sitting me down on his bed.

It had been ages since I had been in his room, and I tell you what, it was kind of scary because the only thing on the walls was basketball stuff, music posters and study notes... I know that’s not weird to some, but the teenage guys I know, have porno pictures up on their walls and every time a friend came over they would show them, but in Sean’s room...not one.

“ok I hope none of them saw us.”, he said peering through the blinds and pacing around his room, “you know what Cassie, I know tonight has been a very eventful night for you but there is something I have to tell you, well I have wanted to tell you this for a long time now but I just haven’t had the courage to tell you because I was scared of your reaction and if I told you this that things would get awkward and all that shit, so here I go... Cassie Davids, from the second I saw you move in next door, I have known th...” he said pacing the room

“Ok you know what you already said all that can you just skip to the end, I didn’t hear the end.” I said standing up and pulling him down onto the bed next to me

“Oh ok then, I was saying that I love you,” my heart jumped out of my body, he had said it I just needed to think of something to say now, “like a sister! So you can sleep in my room if you want too.” He said

then my heart just broke, as soon as he said like a sister, my heart just broke and everything that I had felt in the past 15 years of my life, had no meaning what so ever, as well as the death of my mother, just added more and more pain, how was I going to get over this?

“Oh ok, well do you have a sleeping bag or something, I’ll sleep in that.” I said hiding all the pain that was now rushing from head to toe, I can’t believe that the one guy that I loved didn’t love me back!

Well you know what the past 24 hours had been very emotional and the only thing I’m thinking about is where I’m going to sleep, dude I have issues! Sean walks out of the room, probably to go find a sleeping bag, and while he is doing that I was looking around his room, you know, as you do.

Ok I know that we were totally different people, he had awesome taste in music. I saw the stacks and stacks of CD’s next to his CD player, looking at all the CD’s I pressed play on whatever was in the player, and looked at all the different band posters all over his walls.

The best song in the world comes on, and despite all the things that had happened that day, my mum would want me to be the same teenage girl I am, who dances and sings along to all her favourite songs and all the new songs that come on onto the radio.

So I start singing along to Cross My Heart by Mariana’s Trench and thinking about what would have happened if he did really say he loved me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IeUB5Hx78tA&ob=av2e

So here's another day I’ll spend away from you
Another night I’m on another broken avenue
My bag is ripped and worn but then again now so am I
Take what you wanna take what you wanna take what you

I miss the stupid things we'd go to sleep and then
You'd wake me up and kick me out of bed at 3 a.m.
Pick up the phone and hear you saying dirty things to me
Do what you wanna do what you wanna do what you

Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me home I don't wanna be alone tonight

And I do want to show you I will run to you for you
'til I can't stand on my own anymore
I cross my heart and hope to die
Cross my heart and hope to die
Cross my heart and hope to

Hotels are all the same you're still away from me
Another day another dollar that I’ll never see
Can I get a piece of the piece of the piece of something good?
Lie just a little lie just a little lie just a

I wonder what you're doing I wonder if you got it
I wonder how we used to ever go so long without it
And no matter where I go I’m coming back to you
Be where we oughta be where we oughta be where we
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with home I don't wanna be alone tonight

And I do want to show you I will run to you for you
'til I can't stand on my own anymore
I cross my heart and hope to die

Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you

Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me with you I’d start to miss you
Take me home I don't wanna be alone tonight

And I do want to show you I will run to you for you
'til I can't stand on my own anymore
I cross my heart and hope to die

And I do want to show you I will run to you for you
'til I can't stand on my own anymore
I cross my heart and hope to die

And I do want to show you I will run to you for you
'til I can't stand on my own anymore
I cross my heart and hope to die

And I do want to show you I will run to you for you
'til I can't stand on my own anymore
I cross my heart and hope to die

After the song finishes i walk over to the window and open the curtins a little bit just to see if it had died down a bit and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks right in my chest causing me to crumple to the floor in pain and fear.