3 Cheers For Sweet Revenge

I'm naked now, cold, hungry.
The small cell is dark, no light shines in for me.
A saving light to cut through the inky silk of darkness to light my way to sanity.

How long have I been in here?
What day is it?
What fucking time is it?

Have they fed me yet?
Have I even eaten yet?
A meal of bread and water in a tin mug.

The floor is wet and cold, it's too dark for me to find the inground toilet.
I found it the first time by stepping in it.
But now, I'm too weak..and I don't care to use it..I'll go right here, right now.

I was never going to give up on her, never.
But she gave up first.
God, I never said I'd lie and wait forever, but I really wanted to.
Maybe if I died, we'd be together, forever.

I can't always just forget her, no matter what.
But she can try, in fact she has.
I am nothing now, not to her or anyone for that matter! FUCK!

(At the end of world, what will it be?)
Who the fuck are you? What are you doing in here?
(Or rather, the last thing you and I see?)

I'm losing my mind! Oh God, let me out of this hell hole oven of a cell!
I'll be good, I promise...Dad..I'll be good!
(Hmph..like he cares Grey...or should I say...)

Stop! I have no other name than that! I am Grey! I am Grey!
(You are?)
Yes!! Yes damn it!

(You're never coming home, not to her, all that you will know, is this cell)
Fuck you...
(Hmm...I bet you'd like that now wouldn't you? Have a tumble with me? Like your butt buddies over in cell number-)
Shut the fuck up! Get out of my head!
(Could I?)
Yes..
(Should I?)
YES!

The second slot, where they slide back the thick metal bar to look in on me, slid open.
Bright blinding light pierced in.

"Hey! Shutup in there or we're gonna break out the firehouse again!"

The goon was polite this time around, at least he gave me a warning.
The slit slammed shut.
I didn't bother asking for the time or date, no point. And if he did reply to my question, he'd only lie to further disorient me.
All alone.

(Ahh yes, and I remember now....)
Leave me alone demon.
(Just watch, for a quick second no?)
Get aw-

He silently cut me off, so many visions burning my mind and eyes.
And I saw it.
At the top of my lungs, in my arms...
Oh God, Baby....no.
Helena...
She dies..
She dies!

(Yes, she dies. You do your part very well Grey)
Stop this madness!
(The truth shall set you free)

More black visions, discomfort, pain. I soil myself again.
(How vile.)

Oh God..Helena..this hurts....
(Give in to your hate)
Helena....fuckin..
(Yes..that's it)
Helena, you fucking whore! All the things you never ever told me!
(You're never coming home.)
And all the smiles that are never gonna haunt me!
(Keep going, Tell her how you feel.)

At some point I curled up into the fetal position, my wet flesh feeling clammy on the concrete floor.

Stop.
Stop!
(Almost...ugh..yes...there...)
For all the wounds that are never gonna scar me....fuck!
(DON'T STOP NOW. KEEP GOING YES?)
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch...me...hurts!
(It will hurt, there will be blood, oh yes..)

If I fall...
If I fall
(Down.)
Who will catch me now?

(Let your guns do the talking Grey)
I was always in control of you.
(You were never in control of me)
I don't know what went wrong.
(I happened. You killed me didn't you?)
Yes.
(You thought you did, but this sort of thing never dies does it?)
No..
(What?)
NO!

Suddenly the solitary door flew open, and three men came barging in.
Two of them lifted me to my feet, a tight grip on me.
The third drug in a chair and the others forced me down on it.
They shackled me to the chair with thick heavy chains and mannicles.

"Warned you boy! Mess with the bull, you get the horns!"

They hit me with the firehose for half an hour until my skin was red, raw, and bleeding.
I recieved a heavy beating with billy clubs wrapped in wet towels, so not to leave any bruises or marks. Any bruises that were made, they'd beat out with thin rods to relieve my flesh of the pooling blood discoloration.

Then they left me there, in my own blood, shit, and piss.

(You still with me?)
Not now...
(Escape?)
Not now...
(You will, I'll help.)
Go...away...now...
(You need me.)
No I don't.
(Yes you do. Everyone needs me.)
.......
(Ah, silent treatment? But I'm yours Grey, yours alone.)
.........
(Alright...)
Oww! Oh God..fuck! Oh God!
(Got your attention now?)
What are you doing to me?
(Letting you bleed out. Acknowledge me..now..or die)
No..
(Do it...or die)
NO!
(Shh! Calm down, or you get the cattle prods next! Do you want that?!)
.....No....
(Good, then listen very very carefully)
Yes...
(Repeat after me...Our Father...Who Art In Heaven..)