A Part Of Me

Alexis POV

I hated seeing Broden like this she fell asleep on the couch next to me I walked out to the front of the bus all the guys stood up and all opened there mouths to speak and I shouted “I suggest you don’t talk right now just listen” all the guys looked at me “I know that you guys all talked about Craig being the permanent singer but couldn’t you wait a little longer or have warned me so I could be there for Broden! None of you guys think before you act you’re all little children! Broden Misses Ronnie very much and it’s not right for you to just replace him right away it’s only been 1 month! 1 FUCKING Month! You think she is going to get over it that fast! I don’t think so he is her fucking brother! I know she isn’t part of the band but you should have talked to her! She wouldn’t have acted like that if you would have talked to her!” I shouted I started to cry a little and Craig went to hug me “NO! Craig don’t touch me!” I walked back into the lounge and saw Leila Curled up with Brody. “Thank you Alexis” I looked at her she smiled a weak smile I nodded “anything brodes Ronnie told me to take care of you so I just did” she smiled and went back to sleep.
I had night terrors all night all bad dreams about my baby, Ronnie, Craig, and Leila…. The last one I woke up screaming the door was locked so I heard pounding on the door “OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR ALEXIS!” Max shouted then I saw Broden sit up and tell “Go the fuck away Maxwell!” I didn’t here anything after that.

“What was with the screaming?” Brody asked me I sighed “I don’t know I was having night terrors and they seemed so Life like” she nodded in understanding. I got up and walked out of the room Brody wouldn’t step foot outside it so I got us cloths and Leila something to eat and her day cloths. We all got dressed and waited for us to arrive at the hotel me and Brody agreed we would share a hotel room with Leila.

After 2 hours of spongbob Broden squealed “My baby moves!” I smiled and felt she was right the baby was moving up a storm. I reluctantly let max in to feel he sat next to her and felt then said “I’m sorry brodes” I grabbed him by his belt and kicked him out of the room brody and Leila laughed. We got to the hotel and rushed to our room not talking to the guys that much I told them to leave us alone for a little while meaning the whole time we where here. We sat there eating Ice Cream and watching Aladdin and the little mermaid singing along with it some times then we watched Coralline and The Nightmare before Christmas. Then Leila fell asleep so Brody and I watched Sweeny Todd and Edward scissor hands. I fell asleep and we woke to a knock on the door I got up and looked out the peep hole and saw max and Craig I opened it slightly “yes?” they looked at us and said “How are you?” I smiled “good” then my smile faded “Leave!” I went to close the door and someone’s foot was blocking it I saw Craig look at me “Babe please I’m sorry I never meant to hurt anyone I know I’m a big ass and I fucked up.” I saw max step in “Me to Lex but we miss you girls” I sighed then I saw craig get onto one knee and pull out a box “I know I haven’t known you long but marry me Alexis” I sighed and said “whaa? I have to think about it” I shut the door and Broden came out with her mouth open.

Craig’s POV
She panicked we walked back to the room I felt numb scared she would say no or worse that she hated me and never wanted to see me again. I’m an idiot I feel like I’m being watched like I’m Paranoid…I sat down and started writing another song

Lyrics to Let It Go :
I'm on the verge of a breakdown
I'm on the brink of an epic meltdown
I'm on the way to a flat line
Oh, oh yeah

No, I don't really want to leave you behind
But apparently you can't stay all mine
So I'll try to let you go

You're not mine to own

[Chorus]
If I let it go
If I let this go
If I let you go
Would the scars continue to show?
x2

I'm on the verge of a crackdown
I figured out
Got a bottle of jacked out
I'm on my way to a blackout
Oh, oh yeah

No, I don't really want to leave you behind
But apparently you can't stay all mine
So I'll try to let you go

You're not mine to own

[Chorus]
If I let it go
If I let this go
If I let you go
Would the scars continue to show?
x2

I'm on the verge of a breakdown
Breakdown, breakdown
I'm on the brink of an epic meltdown
Meltdown

No, I don't really want to leave you behind
But apparently you can't stay all mine
So I'll try to let you go

You're not mine to own

[Chorus]
If I let it go
If I let this go
If I let you go
Would the scars continue to show?
x3
I then wrote another song I was thinking about alexis writing this one I think
Lyrics to It's Just Me :
I'm creeping my way out so you can see me
I'm crawling my way around 1,000 cities
You all stop and stare, I don't need your pity
I'm living my life in this hell

Now I'm crawling away cuz the stress has killed me
I feel like I fell from a 10 story building
Best run and hide before the devil starts forbidding
I'm living my life in this hell

I'm not one for the crowd to see
It's just me
It's just...

Just a little more, come on and satisfy me
Just a little more, come on and terrify me
Just a little more and I'll be done with it
Take my life and then I'll feel okay

Cut it out of my mouth
Put my tongue on a pole
I won't sing any more
I'm losing control

Cut it out of my mouth
Put my tongue on a pole
Take the air from my lungs
Take the heart from my soul

I'm not one for the crowd to see
It's just me
It's just...

Just a little more, come on and satisfy me
Just a little more, come on and terrify me
Just a little more and I'll be done with it
Take my life and then I'll feel okay

Okay
I'll feel okay
Okay

Cut it out of my mouth
Put my tongue on a pole
I won't sing any more
I'm losing control

Cut my tears of the sound
The erosion of my soul
I won't sing any more

I'm creeping my way out so you can see me
I'm crawling my way around 1,000 cities
You all stop and stare, I don't need your pity
I'm living my life in this hell

Just a little more, come on and satisfy me
Just a little more, come on and terrify me
Just a little more and I'll be done with it
Take my life and then I'll feel okay

Just a little more, come on and satisfy me
Just a little more, come on and terrify
Just a little more and I'll be done with it
Take my life and then I'll feel
Take my life and then I'll feel
Take my life and then I'll feel okay
I sighed and shut my lyric book hoping she would say yes to me cause I love her and I know I screwed up bigger than shit!