I Want to Hold You, for Now and Forever

Robert Cody:

“Have the courage to live. Anyone can die.”

Me and Bri had gotten home about 1 in the morning, we just decided to walk. LA at night was kind of peaceful, it wasn’t like it was during the day and that’s what I loved about it ‘cause unlike New York, this city sleeps. When we walked through the door, we gasped at the sight; things were thrown around and broken and I thought we had been broken into until we heard Beci and Shads arguing, we decided that we’d just watch TV until it died down but the next time I looked at the clock it read 9 am and I swear they stopped arguing about half hour ago, we had gotten no sleep at all.

“I’m glad they fucking stopped” Brian yawned and stretched “I swear I was going to have to go in there and knock them both out”

I laughed and yawned “Yeah, I know. There’s no point going to sleep now” Brian looked at me strange

“Yes there is, sleep is good no matter the time” he was still looking at me like an alien and I burst out laughing

“Yeah I know but if I go to sleep now I won’t be sleeping properly for days. So you go to sleep and I’ll wake you in a few hours” I started to get up but he pulled me down and kissed me. I love his kisses.

I eventually got up, had a shower and changed. I decided it was best to go see if the other girls were up and as I walked through the door, I saw Dani and Charl sat there looking depressed

“What’s up homies?” I smiled and in return, I got toast thrown at me courtesy of Dani

“No happiness” Charl answered for the both of them I’m guessing as I sat down

“What’s wrong?”

“This whole situation is bullshit” Dani looked at me and I could tell she knew I was confused “Why do you guys get to be happy and shit… Fuckin Dirtbags”

“You mean you and Zack?” I asked and she nodded “Well Dan, I have no fucking sympathy for you. One minute your hot for him then the next you’re threatening to kill him, he’s confused. Our Zacky is a simple being”

“I know but you know I’m not good with this mushy shit, why can’t he guess?” she frowned

“We tried to help him actually, Dan, by giving him hints” Charl included

“I’ll talk to him if you want” I offered

“Got nothing to lose, have I?” I got up and hugged her

“Not at all and I know he likes you ‘cause he keeps talking about you”

“Really?”

“Yes, my little sailor, he likes you. Now get that cute butt into your room and sexy yourself up, got it?” she nodded and smiled before walking into her room.

“Now onto problem numero deux” I laughed “What’s wrong babe”

“I think I’m catching feelings” she huffed and I laughed even more. She is seriously the only one I know who doesn’t like falling for someone.

“And the problem is?”

“It’ll mess things up. You know the saying ‘Don’t fix what isn’t broken? Well I feel like I’m going to break it, if that makes sense?” I nodded

“Yeah, I get it but you don’t know how he feels”

“He doesn’t want a relationship and nor do I but I feel like if I start really liking him, he’ll walk away and after you know who, I don’t want to go through that again. I won’t let myself ‘cause I made myself look like a dickhead and he hates me for it” I hugged her

“I know babe, but for now don’t worry about it. Whatever will be, will be, Que Sera Sera” we laughed “Seriously babe, just see where this goes, go with the flow. It’s always worked for us before”

“Yeah I know I just feel like I’m doing something wrong. Like I’m not supposed to feel like this” she gave a sad smile

“Everybody has the right to love and be loved in return, especially you” she smiled

“Thanks, I just needed to vent” I nodded in understanding

“So what happened last night?” I asked her

“Well Beci and Matt just full on went at it, in front of us all so we left and came here. It was horrible we could hear them through the T.V so we decided to go out and Show the Berry’s a good time”

“And a good time it was” JB injected into the conversation and sat down

“What did you do then?” I asked him

“We just had a good drink and natter” he said “We haven’t been properly introduced I’m Jason”

“I’m Chloe” we smiled and I went for a handshake but he pulled me into a tight grasp “Cannn’t…..Breathe” and he let go

“Sorry” He laughed “I know who you are, I was filled in. So that makes you part of the Avenged family”

“Guess it does” I laughed

“You should tell her the stories you were telling us last night about Syn” Charl laughed

“In due course” he grinned

“Oh god, why does part of me not want to know this?”

“We’ve had some good times and by telling by your face, you and Bri had some last night” he winked

“No actually we didn’t. Are we forgetting who I share a flat with? And who was arguing till half 8 this morning?”

“Shit” they both said at the same time

“Really?” Charl asked

“Yeah, the place is fucking wrecked and I’m pissed off that they forgot its my place too and I have to live there. I am not replacing that shit. We got in about 1 and they were going at it”

“Man, that’s bad” MB replied joining us at the table

“Not as bad as it’s going to be when they get woken up by me in say” I looked at my watch “20 minutes” I grinned “By a saucepan and wooden spoon. Payback is a bitch and so am I” They laughed at me

“Good, you should. Can we do it now??” Charl impatience got the best of her

“Yeah, now!” MB looked like a school kid with his grin. I’m surprised he didn’t start clapping his hands

“Why not?” I said as we got up and made our way next door. I quietly opened the door and told JB to wake Brian so he wouldn’t get shocked too. I grabbed a saucepan and wooden spoon

“I can’t fucking believe this shit” JB said picking up a broken lamp

“I know man, it’s a fucking mess” Brian added. I turned around grinning like a maniac

“This is going to be Sexy time” we laughed and I walked up to Beci’s door, opening it and seeing them sprawled on the bed.

Bang! Bang! Bang! I manically started banging and they jumped and fell out of bed as Charl and the guys started pissing themselves laughing and Dani burst through the door, looking at the sight then burst into hysterics

“What the fuck?!” Shads shouted

“Yeah, fuck off” Beci added

“You want me to fuck off?” I asked and they nodded “Well until you fucking clean the mess you made last night, you aren’t getting another wink of sleep, you inconsiderate bastards” they noted I looked pissed off

“We didn’t mean too” Shads said apologetically

“We’ll clean it; we just want to get some sleep”

“You want sleep? I’ve had fuck all sleep!” I started banging again “I’m not fucking around, get up, clean this place up and replace what you broke, I have to live here too” and with that I slammed the door

“Nice” MB stated “Remind me not to piss you off”

I laughed “Hey! I’m not pissed off; they were inconsiderate of other people that have to live here. So if Bri and I have to live off no or little sleep then so can they”

“Definitely” Brian agreed

“That was hysterical” Dani said still laughing “their faces was classic”

“Agreed, picture perfect” Charl high fived Dani

“So where are the others?” I asked just remembering that we’re missing Jen, Rev, Zacky and Johnny

“We left them at Tony’s. They couldn’t walk, they were plastered” JB laughed

“Dude, I’m not surprised” Brian laughed

“It was hilarious. Rev was telling anybody who walked through the door that ‘A Spoonful of Jimmy Makes the World Go Round’ he even grabbed a spoon at one point and started poking himself with it” MB recalled

“Oh my god! That’s not as bad as you two putting on ‘When a Man Loves a Woman’ and start dancing to it. You were dancing like little kids, that was so funny I was in tears” Dani laughed

“Sounds like you had a good time” I stated

“Yeah, it really was such a good night” JB smiled remembering the night before “Dude, we still going home in a couple days” he directed at Brian. ‘What?’ I thought to myself

“You’re going home?” I said looking at Syn

“That’s what I was going to talk to you about. I want you to come with me, ya know, until you start uni up again” I was shocked and it showed

“I don’t know, Beci and I are meant to go back to England to visit our families, well we’d have to find money from somewhere first”

“How about this; you come to Huntington with us, All of you and All of us will go back to England with you two” It wasn’t a question, he was telling me that, that was what we were doing

“Roadtrip!” MB shouted as Charl laughed and pushed him

“More Like Airtrip!” we laughed

I had no idea how this would work, us going back with them or even where the girls would stop, I guess I’m contradicting myself when I said go with the flow but when that flow goes in a direction that scares me, I’m going to try and change the course. I have complete trust in Brian, I do but what if this goes wrong, what if something happens and we can’t fix it. Why am I caring about the what if’s again? Why should I? I should enjoy the fact that I’m going to be spending more time with him and his friends, his crazy ass friends that I feel like I’ve known all my life. On second thoughts, Screw the what ifs.