You Should Know

Our last day at the beach house is a slow and peaceful one.

We lay out on the beach all morning.

The sun feels nice on my skin.

We don’t talk for the longest time, so my mind can wander.

I pretend you’re here next to me.

Mi amor, you’d call me.

We’d talk about the wedding plans.

I’m almost asleep and dreaming about you when Victoria finally speaks.

Alex asked if I saw you at the show – it’s the question I’ve been dreading.

I want to know what she said to you, if anything.

Nothing – that’s her answer.

I turn to look at her to make sure; I don’t quite believe her.

I promised you I wouldn’t tell anyone anything- Victoria reminds me. – I’m going to keep my promise.

Thank you – I reply, relieved. – Just…after I’m gone, tell him I’m sorry for running.

She smiles faintly and nods, but the smile is fleeting.

She looks away to wipe her eyes.

She doesn’t like it when I talk about when I’m gone.

Victoria’s one of the only people I can count on.

We spent the entire day yesterday sorting through boxes.

I couldn’t bring myself to throw most of the things out –

I want you to have them.

They’re all for you.

She’ll give them to you when I’m gone.

We spend the rest of the day at the beach.

We reminisce, mainly.

I dread the end of the day.

At the end of the day, it’s back to reality for me.

I miss you.