High School Is Horrible...For the Most Part

I'm starting to get distracted. in school and everything else. I can't seem to get a fix on anything, can't seem to stick with one thing without getting distracted by another ting. grades aren't where they're suppose to be. I'm trying my best but its hard. I use to be an honor student and now i don't even get a 3.0 GPA. I don't know how to get back on track. I hate when people put me on a pedestal, I'm not a perfect person, and people think I am, i just can't be the person I once was. It drains me to be perfect and not be myself, I was living a lie and now I can't keep it up. People are noticing. People are talking and gabbing away. I usually don't give a fuck what people think about me but this eats at me. I"m lost and pissed. Bad combination to have. I feel like a ticking time bomb. I'll explode at any given moment. And explode the fucking world out of orbit and into oblivion.