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All That I Am, All That I Ever Was Is Here in Your Perfect Eyes

A Frerard.
An unforgivable catastrophe forces My Chemical Romance to come to a screeching stop as the loss of a friend and a brother becomes too much to bear.
The accident not only destroys the band but also breaks apart a blissful year together shared by Gerard and Frank as they find they’re not as invincible as they thought.
Both blame themselves for the death and both cannot begin to cope but with Gerard crumbling and his perfection rotting at the seams he sends the only other man in his life away, making Frank promise never to return.
Three years since Mikey was stolen from them and on the four-year anniversary of the lover’s breakup Frank breaks his promise and is thrown back into Gerard’s extremely changed life.
They can only see glimpses of the men they fell in love with and new jobs, new loves and new detached lives threaten to make it impossible for them to even be friends again…will the ghosts of their past and the love they lost be enough to unite them once and for all?
Do people really ever change?

A disclaimer: This was difficult for me to write, I’d appreciate some decent feedback for it please- what you did/didn’t like, favorite lines etc and I’ll try and make the updates regular. However i am moving to university and to live on my own next week so i may be without a laptop for a while, bear with me, comment and the chapters will appear- threaten me to update and they shall not ;)
  1. The World Is So Cold Now That You've Gone Away
    Chapter one- The first of the haunting flashbacks
  2. If I Could Just Hold You We Could Last
    Chapter Two- Flashback 2 begins (part one)
  3. And If You Go I Won't Believe That It's Forever
    Chapter Three- Flashback Two (part Two)
  4. Every Breath That I Remember
    Chapter Four- flashback 4: The One-Year Anniversary
  5. I'll Never Let You Go- Promise To Never Fade Away
    Chapter five: Flashback 5- The three year anniversary
  6. And It's Alright To Pretend That We Still Talk
    Chapter Six: Back to the present!
  7. You Disappeared Without A Trace
    Chapter Seven
  8. Wouldn't Know How To Say...
    Chapter Eight: ...How Good It Feels Seeing You Today
  9. Dumbstruck, Colour Me Stupid
    Chapter Nine...
  10. Compulsion Has Stained Me
    Chapter ten; For Ripley :)
  11. It's Breaking Every Rule I Ever Made
    Chapter 11
  12. You'll Make Me Sick Again
    Chapter twelve; i don't really like this,
  13. Enough Is Never Enough To Make A Dent
    Chapter Thirteen; i actually like this one- feedback would be love :)
  14. Fulfilment Just Adds Fuel To The Blaze
    Chapter 14
  15. I Still Get Lost In Your Eyes
    Chapter 15
  16. The Chemistry Behind Us Could Destroy This Place
    Chapter sixteen
  17. So Close, Enough To Taste It
    Chapter Seventeen
  18. All Of The Hopes We Cherished Fade
    Chapter Eighteen
  19. Do You Remember How We Used To Melt?
    Chapter Nineteen
  20. Used To Think You Were The One...
    Chapter 20
  21. Question Mark Shaped Heart
    Chapter Twenty-One; [Dedicated to my lovely Ripley-face <3]
  22. I Can Be Yours- If You Want?
    Chapter Twenty-Two; Happy New Year :D
  23. Did You Get What You Deserve?
    Chapter Twenty-Three
  24. I Just Can't Look, It's Killing Me
    (And Taking Control.) Chapter Twenty-Four (updated 26/01/08)
  25. Making The Same Mistakes Again
    Chapter Twenty-Five (new update 1- 20/02/08)
  26. Feel My World Falling Away With You
    Chapter twenty-six (new update 2. Updated 25/2/08)
  27. Spin, Sugar, Spin
    Chapter Twenty-Seven (29/02/08)
  28. Still It's You I Can't Deny
    Chapter Twenty-Eight (07/03/08)
  29. Through The Storm We Reach The Shore
    Chapter Twenty-Nine. Dedicated with love to Adora68.
  30. A Strange Way Of Saying, I'm Supposed To Love You
    Chapter Thirty;