Cause Its A BreakDown.

This turned out SO much worse then it was supposed to. I didnt mean for my mom to find out & call the cops. That the last thing i wanted. I know i have to tell the truth & i cant like about this. But i also Know im gonna be in big trouble when i do tell the truth cause i should have put myself in that situation anyways. So it is my fault. I know i did something wrong. Im perfectly away of that. Im NOT stupid. Im aware i did something DUMB & Risky but i dont care. Maybe i wanted something bad to happed. I dont know. The fact that i knew something bad could & just might happen, yet it didnt phase me & i went anyways just makes me question my Sanity even more.
Maybe im just wishing for something to happen & to take me away from this Chaotic Mess of a world. i dont know what i want. Maybe it'll take almost dying to knock me back into Reality. How does Every i do end up coming back to my normalicy or my sanity? I wish we had enough money to send me off. I want to leave this stupid Mid-West town. 'Im Off Like A Plane Is Off The Ground When Flying. And Im Soaring.'

Im Brutal. But i have my reasons. What color are you eyes when your sad? Mine are usually Green. Are you Brutal? Do you walk away? Do you Confront Them? What do you do in a difficult Situation? I want to know(:

Signed Sincerely,
Me<3