See the Sky, See the Stars, All of This Could Be Ours

The sound of the guys mucking around in the front of the bus filled my ears as I sat in my bunk. It had been 2 weeks since I got that phone call from Mum now. I’ve been talking to her almost every night since then and Tammy as well. The surgery that Mum has to have is set for about 2 week’s time, so the doctor says.

I sighed and twirled the plane ticket in my hands. I had made my choice...I think anyway. I was still planning it in my head. I’ve been thinking a lot about it; I think the guys have noticed that and I’m sure that they think I’m going home. I have got the plane ticket but I haven’t told them when the flight is; which is tomorrow. I either had to choose tomorrow or next week because I wanted a straight flight back to Perth, Western Australia and not a flight where I have to swap planes and stuff.

I sighed again; this is really doing my head in. Mostly because I’m trying to think of ways to be with Mum for as long as she needs me and to see Max and my “brothers” again soon...Ugh!

“Hey love.” Max said softly walking over to where I was on the bunk.
“Hey babe.” I said back.

A huge smile spread across his face as I said that. I couldn’t help but smile too. He walked up to me and sat next to me on the bunk. I placed my head on his shoulder and he wrapped one of his arms around me. I smiled softly. I’ll miss this. I’ll miss him so much...

“What’s that?” He asked pointing to the plane ticket in my hands.
“My plane ticket.” I sighed.

He nods his head slowly.

“So you are going home.” He stated quietly.
“Yeah...”

I looked up at him sadly. I don’t want to leave him but I kinda have to. I want to be there and help Mum.

“I’m sorry I j-“

I was cut of by him kissing me. I kissed him back softly before he pulled away.

“You don’t need to be sorry. Honestly if I was in the same position as you I would go home too, no matter how much it hurt me to do it. Family like your Mum is important.”
“Yeah, she is.” I nodded slowly looking away slightly.
“And it will be important for you to be there for her as it will be for you to be there through the whole thing.” He smiled softly.

I looked back at Max a little surprised. Since when did he give such good advice like that? Normally Monte was the one for that kind of stuff.

“Ok, who are you and where is my Max?” I asked.

He started laughing and I chuckled a little. I leaned forward and hugged him and he held me tight and then moved me onto his lap. He buried his head in my neck.

“So when does the plane leave?” He asked.

I was quiet for a moment before sighing a little.

“Tomorrow.”
“That soon?” He asked moving his head to look at me.
“Yeah.” I nod my head. “I wanted a straight flight back to Perth and that was the best one they had.”
“Oh...” He mumbled. “Tara can I be selfish for a moment?” He randomly asked.
“Yeah I guess so.” I chuckled.

He smiled before pouting trying to give me his best puppy dog face. I bit my lip so I wouldn’t laugh at him.

“Don’t go!” He exclaimed hugging me tightly again.

He started laughing a little and so did I because of what his face looked like before. I know he was just doing it to make me smile and it was working. He always makes me smile. I pulled away from him so I could kiss him. I felt him smile as he kissed me back. After a long moment we pulled away so we could breathe.

“Well I guess I better tell my dorky brothers.” I mumbled.

Max laughed at that a little and let me go so I could stand up. Though I could tell by his laugh that he was sad. I walked out to where the others were with Max behind me. Both Monte and Craig opened their arms for me. They both then looked and glared playfully at each other. I chuckled and sat half on Craig’s lap and half on Monte’s. Max sat next to Robert on the other couch.

“So tomorrow hey?” Monte asked.
“You heard?” I asked looking at him.
“Yeah...We were kinda spying on yous.” He smiled innocently.

I rolled my eyes smiling. Should have known that they would do that.

“Yeah my flight is tomorrow.” I said looking down.

We were all quiet for a moment.

“Well,” Craig started. “Seeing as we are you “dorky brothers”, and it will be you last night...On this tour.” He said the last bit quickly. “We are all going to hang out and have fun tonight. So which movie are we watching?”

We laughed at him for the last part. But I think everyone agreed that we should have a fun night together. I smiled softly at that. I’m going to spend my time tonight with my guys like I would any other night and I’m going to make sure I remember it.

Suddenly Max and Robert jumped up from the couch and ran to the stack of movies we had shoving each other out the way.

“I’m choosing!” Max said.
“No I am!” Robert exclaimed.

I laughed shaking my head. Nope I won’t forget tonight, with my guys there was no way that I could.

*~*~*

I stared out the window as I sat on Max’s lap and holding Craig’s hand. We were at the airport waiting for my flight to be called, like normal it was late. And to tell the truth I was already trying not to cry. I was leaving like half of my family here. Just like I did when I moved here from Australia. It’s the same thing all over again; leaving my family behind to move. And the thing that bothered me the most was that I have no idea when I’ll see them again. It could be between 6 months to how knows how many years. I bit my lip hard so I wouldn’t cry.

I felt Max’s arm tighten around me as he buried his face in my hair. I closed my eyes lightly. I wish we could just stay like this. Then I felt Craig hold my hand tighter as well. We were all very quiet.

“Flight 112 to Perth, Western Australia is now boarding.” A Ladies voice came over the speaker.

I opened my eyes and for a long second Max didn’t move at all to let me go as Craig let my hand go. Max sighed against my neck and stood up with me. He kept one arm around my waist and Monte took my hand that Craig was holding before. We slowly walked over to the gate, which we were sitting by already. I stopped walking and face all the guys.

“I’m going to miss yous so much!” I exclaimed.

Well it’s true, their actually a huge part of my life now just like they were my real family.

“We’ll miss you too.” Monte said hugging me.

I hugged him tightly back fighting off tears. And if you think I’m this bad at saying good bye now you should have seen me when I left Australia for the first time...

“Good luck with everything. Keep in touch ok sis.” He smiled softly pulling away.
“Thankyou.” I crooked out.

I turned and hugged Robert tightly. He picked my up slightly off the ground and I could help but chuckle a little. He placed me down softly.

“Take care and good luck with your Mum.”

I smiled at him and then Craig pretty much jumped on me hugging me. I couldn’t help but laugh a little, though he was squishing me.

“Good luck and don’t worry I’ll look after Max.” He whispered in my ear.
“Thank you.” I said kissing his cheek.

We pulled away and I looked over at Max, he was looking down. I walked over to him and took one of his hands. He looked up at me in the eyes. I looked back at him for a long moment. Now I was really fighting off tears and by the looks of it he was too. I let go of his hand and pulled him into a tight hug. I didn’t want to let him go.

He pulled away and crashed his lips on mine. I quickly kissed back. It was like we were kissing for the last time ever...And who knows it could be. I wrapped my arms around his neck to bring him closer and he did the same by wrapping his arms around my waist. I think for like the first time we heard nothing from others while we were kissing in front of them. After a moment I had to pull away for air, though I really didn’t want to. Max smiled softly and ran his thumb over my cheek, that’s when I noticed that tears were falling slowly down my face.

“I love you Tara.” He said looking into my eyes.

For a moment I was shocked. That was the first time he had said that he loved me more then just best friends. I started back into his eyes and a huge smiled spread across my face.

“I love you too Max.”

He smiled hugely and leaned in kissing me again. I couldn’t help but keep smiling. And it’s true; I love Max. I really do.

“Flight 112 to Perth Australia is now boarding, second last call.”

Me and Max pulled away. I looked back at him sad. I really didn’t want to go; but I had to. I turned and Monte who was holding my bag gave it to me. I smiled lightly at him as a thank you.

“We’ll miss you Taryn.” He said. “And don’t worry I’ll look after the stuff that’s still at the house.”
“Thanks.” I said to him.

I looked over all the guys and I blinked back tears. I felt even more divided apart now then before. But I’m making myself a promise; I’ll come back and see them. I will.

“I’ll try and keep in touch. Yous take care and have a fun on the rest of the tour.” I said my voice almost breaking. “Cya guys.” I mumbled.
“You take care too.” Craig said.

I nod my head and let go of Max’s hand which I was holding. I looked at him and started walking over to the gate to show the lady my ticket as the others said good bye to me. She took it and checked it before handing it back. I could feel the guy’s eyes on me.

“Good byes are always hard, but though you might not see them for a while, once their in you heart their away there.” The lady said.

I smiled lightly at her and nod my head. She smiled back and turned to check another person’s ticket. I sighed and started walking into the gate. I stopped and turned to look back at the guys. I could feel tears running down my face.

I lifted my hand and waved at them, they all waved back and I gave them a small blow kiss. I smiled lightly when I saw Max pretend to grab it and hold his hand over his heart. I started walking still looking at them until I could see them any more, then I turned my eyes to the ground and wiped my tears away.

I walked into the plane and took a few minutes to find my seat, right next to the window. I placed my bag up the top and sat down looking out the window. I wiped more tears away and bit my lip. As much as I wanted to cry and I had to stop myself somehow. I didn’t want random people seeing me crying here. I closed my eyes.

‘There’s a place that I’ve found,
As far as I can see,
This place lies,
Within the depths of my dreams...’

I quickly opened my eyes and grabbed my American phone from my pocket. I flipped it open. I had a text. Who could be sending me a text now?

“The plane will be taking off in 20 minutes, please turn off all cell phones and buckle up.” Some voice came over the speaker.

I did up my belt and looked back at my phone. I had to see this text before I turned it off. I opened the message and read it. Tears started flowing from my eyes. I love you so much Max.

‘From: Maxi <3
See the sky, see the stars, all of this could be ours.
I love you babe. <3 Max.’