Just Like You

In the taxi over to the hotel, I start to get nervous. This is a big step for me. I usually never sleep with a guy I’ve only know for a month. But it’s Oli. And he’s… he’s the one for me.

I sneak a glance at him. He’s leaning on the window, looking cool and aloof. His eyes glance over at me as if he can feel my eyes on him and he smiles. He reaches out his hand for mine and gently caresses it. The taxi driver is babbling, but I’m just focused on Oli.

I wonder if I mean as much to him as he does to me. It’s dangerous feeling this strongly for him, but I can’t help it. Everything about him just screams that he’s gonna be the only one for the rest of my life. That’s silly, I know. But he really is all I want.

He’s kind, he’s funny, he can be sweet. He pays attention to me, he takes care of others. He’s a singer like me, even if we’re in different genres. He’s creative and interesting. He’s so complicated, I know there are levels of him I’ll never know. He’s Oli and I want him to be all mine.

The taxi pulls up outside a decent hotel, but I wouldn’t care if it was the Ritz or a Red Roof. Oli pays the driver and we head in. His band and mine will be coming out later in the buses, but Oli and I decided to skip the party.

When we left, I knew Kayla and Emily were watching me with concern. I know that Jon and Ace were trying to calm them down. I know they think what we’re about to do is stupid and I hate that. I wish I could have my friends back, but it’s obvious that that’s not going to happen.

“Where’d you go?” Oli wraps an arm around me, pulling me close to whisper in my ear. My eyes dart up to his own hazel ones and I notice the smile. I smile back, banishing the thoughts of my false friends.

I snuggle into the crook of his arm as we walk to the front desk. Oli takes care of it while I notice the arrogant smirk on the clerk’s face, like he knows exactly what this is, just another one night stand.

In the elevator, we’re both leaning on different sides, looking over at him. “What a wanker, did you see that oh so all knowin’ look in his eyes?” Oli sneers and I can’t help but giggle.

“Like he sees this all the time,” I add in and Oli chuckles. He reaches out for my hand again and I clasp it. The elevator dings and we exit.

“Uh, where do we go?” I look in the two directions and get a little lost. It all looks the same and kind of creepy. Oli checks something and then takes off to the right. I run after him, quickly latching onto his arm.

“I don’t wanna get lost in this maze,” I mumble and Oli looks down at me with an amused look in his eyes. He turns again to the right and we’re faced with a door. He unlocks it and holds the door open for me.

Hesitating just a little, I walk in. Oli flips on the lights as I stand before the king sized bed. This all feels so awkward.

He walks up behind me, wrapping his arms around me to rest his head on my shoulder. “Are you sure you’re okay?” I nod and he sighs. “I don’t believe you. What’s wrong?”

I turn around and smile at him, pretending to be confidant and like I know what I’m doing. I press my body up against his and bite my lower lip as I look up at him through my lashes.

With a deep groan, Oli leans down and captures my lips with force, controlling the kiss. He deepens it until I feel like he’s going to suck me in and keep me within him forever. His hands are working at releasing my hair as my fingers grip the edges of his shoulders, so breathless and filled with wanting.

He releases me from his kiss, leaning down to kiss my exposed skin. My tank top is low enough that he presses a soft kiss on the swell of my chest. I suck in air, tensing up as his hands slip under the loose tank.

Unable to take it anymore, I pull away a little and strip the shirt from my body. His eyes hungrily take in the skin and I feel a little awkward, like I’m too bold. He reaches for me again, but I stop him.

“Only fair, right?” With a fake smirk, I pull his shirt over his head. The sight of his body, so covered in tattoos… I lean into him, kissing each tattoo. His chest is heaving as he breaths heavily.

“You’re killing me, you know that right?” he mutters, just barely able to get the words out. I smile and turn him a little. He backs up until he’s sitting on the bed. He opens his arms and I step into them. His lips seek out mine as he leans back, bringing us both down onto the bed.

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There’s thick silence in the room. Oli won’t even look at me. I’m so embarrassed. I grab the first shirt I see and run to the bathroom, fighting down tears. Behind the closed door though, I can’t help but sob a little.

I’m so stupid. I should have told him. To just surprise him like that… I’m a complete idiot. I curl into a ball, my back against the cold ceramic tub. I try to stop my sobs when I hear him moving around in the room.

The bathroom door opens and I close my eyes, wanting to make this night go away. He’s going to dump me now because he knows the truth. I’m a stupid little liar who should be left alone.

He crouches down next to me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

“Quinn, let’s not talk about this in here. Please, come back into the room. I can’t do this while looking at your face and your reflection. I’ll crumble.” His voice is soft and I don’t stop him when he takes my hand and leads me back into the room. I cover my eyes with my hand, embarrassed that I’m crying, embarrassed that this is all my fault. He sits me on the bed and soon pulls me into him, his arms around me.

“Why didn’t you tell me? I never would have done it like this if you had told me.” His words are kind and I feel like the biggest ass ever.

“That I was a virgin? I’m twenty two for god sakes! If I told you, what would you have thought? You would have thought that I’m like a child, stupid and inexperienced. You would have left me as soon as you could.” I turn into him, burying my tears into his chest. He sighs and holds me even closer in his arms.

“Do you really think that I could do something like that? To you? Never,” he pauses and I wait for him to continue, completely freaking out about what will come next. “You mean a lot to me. Probably too much for just a month, but I do. I could never hurt you.”

I pull away from him and he’s smiling at me. He’s not going to ditch me. He’s not going to be weird. He’s just Oli and he’s going to keep me around. I smile back at him when he gently brushes away the last of the tears.

“Just think about it this way, I get to teach you everything you need to know. You’re lucky you have a good teacher.” I giggle and he smirks. He kisses me, soft and sweet. When he had found out, everything stopped. But now with him kissing me again and with his body so close to mine, I can’t help but feel the fires rekindle and quickly turn into a burning blaze.

When I pull away a little, I see a matching fire in his eyes. “Let’s try this again? This time properly?” I laugh a little before pulling him to me again, wanting those lips of his now.