When I Get Home, You're So Dead

3:20 a.m.

A tear slowly crept down my cheek as I stared out the window with the moon shining in. I just woke up from the most awful dream. I couldn't sleep. I thought about how in four more days high school will be over...and I will be packing up for L.A. and using that passport that I have been saving for two months.

But instead in my dream...when I was on the plane. It crashed and I died...

I was so scared. What if that actually happened? What would happen to Alex and Isobel...and my dad? Would Alex miss me? Would he cry at my funeral? What would he do? I turned over in my bed and looked at Alex in his bed with his lower lip sticking out. He was in a deep sleep.

I gulped and continued to stare at him. Did I really want to leave him? Did he really want to leave me?

I nibbled my lip and stared at the time...3:25 a.m..

Great...

I raised up on my elbows and looked back over at Alex. He didn't move. He just laid there completely knocked out.

"Alex?" I whispered. Tears filled my eyes.

He didn't even move.

"Alex..." I said again, raising my voice a little.

He still didn't move.

I got up out of my bed and slowly walked over to his. I bent down to his level. My face met his.

"Alex..." I whispered, poking his arm. He still didn't move.

"Alex!" I whisper-yelled as he cocked his eyebrow.

"Mmm." He moaned as I laid my hand lightly back on his arm.

"Alex." I said as he turned over and covered up more.

"Alex." I could say his name forever.

"Please, wake up." I whispered, my hand still on his arm.

I tapped my finger on his arm for a few minutes until he turned over and looked at me with confusion.

"What are you doing?" He croaked.

"I can't sleep." I replied as he looked at me for a second and opened his mouth to speak but then he stopped himself. He scooted over and patted his hand next to him with a smile on his face.

I gave him a half smile and laid down beside him as he looked at me in my eyes.

"Why can't you sleep?" He asked, raising up on his elbow and moving a strand of hair out of my face.

"Thinking about how fast these four years went...and this month went...It seems just like yesterday you moved in and I couldn't stand you." I chuckled as he smirked and looked around our room.

He looked down at me as I gave him a half smile.

"And now...that's all going to end soon. Really soon." I whispered as he laid his head down by mine and I felt his cool breath on the side of my cheek.

"We're still going to see each other, Mae." He smiled as I looked over at him and I felt the lump easing it's way up my throat.

"Alex, you will be touring or whatever the fuck you're going to do and I will be at college in L.A. and...that's far. It's not like I can come back here everyday." I sighed.

"Hey, it's okay." He chuckled, nudging me in the arm as I rolled my eyes.

"Whatever." I whispered.

Yeah, It's okay for him because he will be drinking every night and probably fucking every chick he sees...but it's not okay for me...because he says he would be there for me and that he loves me but I know him...he isn't what he seems.

"Whatever? Come on...don't give me that look." He smiled as I gulped and met his eyes.

"Alex, Senior year is over. Can you believe it?" I said as he stared at me and his smile dropped.

"Look, I know it's over...but this is the beginning of our lives! I'm going on tour! You're going to a really nice college in L.A.! We're going to be coming to L.A. like all the time..." He said as I rolled my eyes and a tear decided to roll down my cheek.

"Don't cry, Mae." He muttered as I shook my head and my lower lip quivered as I tried to stop crying but I couldn't.

I slid my index finger across my cheek to try and get all the tears off.

"I don't know why I am. It's just...graduation." I sobbed as he threw his arm over my waist and brought me closer to him.

"It's suppose to be a happy time." He chuckled.

"I know but...I don't know. It seems like everything is falling apart like two nights ago...I can't believe my dad slapped me like that." I whispered as Alex kissed my cheek and hummed up against it.

"Better?" He smiled.

"No." I fake pouted and folded my arms across my chest as he laughed and I turned over, facing my empty bed.

"Oh, so it's going to be that way huh?" I heard a smile in his voice as a smile played on my lips.

I felt his arm snake around my waist as he spooned me close to him.

I chuckled and turned my head to meet his face.

"Goodnight, Miss-Scared-For-Graduation." He laughed as I stuck my tongue out at him.

I laid my head on his pillow as I felt his lips kiss my shoulder blade, making me have shivers up and down my spine.

"Goodnight, Mr. Dick Face." I giggled as he grabbed my stomach and brought me even closer to him.

"Hey!" I giggled as he laughed and pressed his lips up against my neck.

"I'm not a dick face." He chuckled, his lips still not parting from my neck.

"Yes, you are." I smirked as he squeezed me so tight I thought I couldn't breath. He sucked on my neck. I couldn't stop giggling.

"No more hickey's!" I managed to squeal as he laughed and kissed my jaw.

"Fine. No more hickey's." He sighed as I smiled.

"Thank you."

"What? You don't like hickey's from my amazing lips on your gorgeous neck?" He asked as I met his eyes.

"Alex, for the last time...we have parent's that are married and uh...If they find another hickey on me in the morning...they'll know it's from you." I said as he rolled his eyes.

"You don't know how to hide them? Damn. What is wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you? You're putting your lips where they don't belong." I laughed.

"Hey, my lips can be where ever they want...Wherever I choose." He smirked, placing his lips on the middle of my stomach as I giggled and hit his head.

"Alex! Don't!" I smiled as he raised up, his lips still close to my stomach.

"What? You wanted to come into my bed. And here you are...laying here. I'm bored. You're bored. We-." I cut him off.

"It's a school night...Well, morning?" I chuckled.

"So fucking what?! School night. Morning. Weekend. Thirty minutes before school. Who gives a damn?!" He said as I rolled my eyes.

"I do, Alex!" I said.

He looked at me for a minute and laid his head on my stomach, his feet hanging off the bed as I smirked.

"You're pushing it." I said as he pressed his face into my skin.

"Ah!" He groaned, making me giggle from the vibration of his voice against my skin.

He raised up and smirked, his messy brown hair sticking up.

I smoothed them down and petted him as he closed his eyes and smiled.

"Nice, doggie." I giggled.

He opened his eyes and cocked his eyebrow as I laughed.

"Goodnight! For the last time." I smiled as he smiled back.

"Fine. Goodnight." He sighed, switching positions as I laid my head in the crook of his neck and he wrapped his arms around me tight.

It got all quiet as I started laughing.

"What?" Alex chuckled.

"Nothing." I calmed down.

"No. Just tell me." He said, a smile in his voice.

"Nothing! Go to sleep." I muttered.

"You're crazy." He laughed.

"For you."

~

"And then you circle around the gym until you hit here." Mr. Nelson said as I rolled my eyes and watched Alex and Jack goof around in their seats from across the gym.

Maria stared at me and then back at Mr. Nelson. I cocked my eyebrow. This is so boring. Just sitting here listening to him speak about graduation night.

I am in the front row and getting a really good view of Mr. Nelson's side burns and mustache. I'm not so sure I want to go to lunch after this.

"Hey! Ms. Watson! Let's use you for show." He smirked, curling his finger toward him as I gulped and everything got silent in the gym except for some janitor's messing around with stuff in the back.

I got up on stage as Mr. Nelson got up there with me.

"Do you see how Mae is standing?" He asked as my whole fourth hour stared at me and Alex about died of laughter. I rolled my eyes.

They all nodded.

"We do not want you slouching! Or when you're in the audience listening to someone give their speech we do not want you talking and horsing around like Mr. Gaskarth over there." Mr. Nelson said pointing to Alex and I couldn't help but laugh.

"Is there something you would like to share with the whole class, Ms. Watson?" He asked me as I blushed and cleared my throat.

Alex smirked.

"And if a classmate happens to trip we would like someone to help them up if possible..." Mr. Nelson said as he pressed his hand up against my back.

"You can get off now, Ms. Watson." He said as I nodded and got off stage. I rolled my eyes when I sat down.

Like seriously? What the fuck was the point in that?

The bell rang, echoing through out the whole gym as I pounced up from my seat and slung my bag over my shoulder.

I walked to the entrance of the gym and was getting ready to walk out to go to my fifth hour that was until Alex and Jack stopped me.

"Where do you think you're going , bitch?!" Jack yelled, pushing me up against the walls as my eyes popped out of my sockets.

"Huh?" I said in shock.

"I don't know." He laughed as I rolled my eyes and folded my arms across my chest.

"You're so stupid, Jack." Alex chuckled as I smiled.

"I know." Jack smirked.

I met eyes with Alex as he pressed his hand up against the wall by my head and leaned in, getting closer to my face as I looked at Jack who's mouth parted slightly.

"Alex." I stopped him, pressing my palm up against his chest.

"What?" He said as I met eyes with Alex as he followed my eyes and we both looked at Jack who looked completely star struck.

"Jack. Do you mind, bro? I need to have a word with her about our dad." Alex said, forcing the our part in as Jack chuckled and patted Alex's shoulder and he walked down the hallway and then looked back for a brief second as he met up with Maria.

"What do you really want?" I smirked as he smiled and looked back at Jack who was laughing with Maria about something.

Alex looked back and met my eyes.

"About graduation night. I want to sit with you." He smiled as I chuckled and rolled my eyes.

"Oh, do you now?" I laughed as he nodded.

"I thought you wanted to sit with Maria and the guys." I said doing finger quotes as he shrugged.

"I changed my mind." He grinned.

I couldn't help but blush as he bit his lip.

"Okay." I sighed as he kissed my cheek.

I pushed him off of me.

"People know we are sort of related now, Alex. You can't do that here." I chuckled as he rolled his eyes and stepped back with open arms.

I shook my head and walked toward him. I wrapped my arms around his waist and squeezed him tight.

"Can we leave now?" I laughed, up against his chest.

"Fuck you! You don't want to stand here holding this precious person in front of you then fine!" He shouted, as some people stared.

"Alex!" I blushed.

"Be that way." He pouted.

I chuckled.

He met eyes with me and laughed.

"Bye." He said as I walked away and then I felt someone grab my ass. I turned around to see Alex smirking and walking backwards as he winked at me.

Oh, wow.