I Want a Taste of Your Medicine

The rest of the day had gone by a bit awkwardly and I could tell that Marshall, Landon and Adam were all confused with the tiptoeing around each other that Jake and Max had been doing. I just tried to ignore it and focus on something different.

The surf competition had been postponed for 3 more days and so the guys still had 6 days to practice. September started next week and it was weird to think that I didn't have school to go to. I did however need to start looking for a job. I wrote up my resume and handed it to a few places that I thought I might like to work at. Most of them were clothing stores that carried really cute stuff. Doesn't everybody love getting the 10 percent discount at places you work at and like?

The guys were having people over tonight for a few drinks but I knew better. About an hour into this get together more people will have showed up, and more alcohol would have showed up and the few drinks would have turned into a full out party.

I went up stairs to check on Jake but his room was pitch black. I hadn't noticed how dark it had gotten outside. I could hear people at the door on the floor behind me and I knew that it wasn't going to be long until the music stared blaring. As far as I could tell Jake wasn't in his room and so I went to walk out but a pair of lips caught mine. It was a different feel and it was actually kind of nice, who knew Landon could kiss like that? With such care and gentleness.

"Landon," I said backing away a bit but he didn't move, he just paused standing there. I couldn't see him and so I didn't know what was going on. Was he thinking about doing stuff with me; I shivered at the thought, but then thought about how much I might have wanted it.

"Oh god, Pattyn?" I heard his voice say and then I realized that, that wasn't Landon's voice. I panicked as I hurried to find the light switch, but I couldn't. I just stood there shocked and guilty.

"Max?" I said backing away a little bit. I can't believe I just betrayed Jake like that, without even knowing I was doing it. Oh my god, what was wrong with me? I felt so bad about what just happened and I don't even know how to fix it. I heard a loud boom from Max's way and shot him a confused glance, even though he couldn't see it.

"Ow, shoot, shit, what the fuck, ow," He shouted and then I realized that he was hopping. I laughed a little bit knowing that he stubbed his toe and then stopped when I realized the fact that we had just kissed. A turning began in my stomach and I could feel the guilt rising in me. I finally found the light switch and turned it on, revealing Max in colour.

"Why did you kiss me?" I shouted in a whisper placing my hands on my face and shaking my head at him. I wished so badly that I could take it back.

"Why was I referred to as Landon?" He shouted back at me in a whisper. I didn't say anything for a few seconds, trying to think about what to say. I decided that keeping my mouth shut about everything would probably be a better solution for me right now.

"That doesn't matter right now," I said back and before I knew it his mouth was attached to mine again. I tried to push him off of me but he wouldn't let me and eventually I gave in. The kiss felt nice, but I wasn't really digging the fact that he was kissing me in the first place. He pulled away and looked at me with an angry expression.

"Why don't I feel anything?" He said confused and upset. It took me a few minutes to grasp what he was doing here. He had intended to kiss Jake, but then he ran into an opportunity to see if he could feel anything while kissing a girl.

"I guess I'm just a bad kisser?" I suggested knowing that I really wasn't. Guys had always made note to let me know that I was an amazing kisser. I guess that I let it get to my head a little bit, but who really cares right now.

"No, you really aren't. Kissing you was quite enjoyable, but I didn't feel anything. I'm gay aren't I? How can this be happening to me?" I let him ramble on a bit more to himself before slapping him and telling him to calm down.

"You just need time to think about this, okay?" I said, looking at him concerned. He was seriously going to hurt his brain if he thought about it all in a bunch at one time like he was already doing right now.

"Jake and I can't be together right now, not while I'm such a mess. I don't want to hurt him though," He said and I looked at him with sympathy. He obviously didn't understand that Jake had told him so that he could get used to it quicker, and not because he wanted to be with him right away. Jake obviously knew that Max would need some time.

"That's okay, he doesn't expect that," I said rubbing his back a little bit. He hugged me and then I left the room and walked downstairs to join the "get together". It was so weird with everything Jake and Max were going through, but it was sweet.

The room was filled with more girls than guys and I could see Landon flirting with a girl in a tiny mini skirt and a tube top. Her boobs were plastic which anybody could tell but I guess that's the kind of girl Landon likes, the easy ones. I knew that I was just one of his play things but I didn't expect it to be so strange seeing him talk to another girl. He looked over at me and smiled and I smiled back.

I then looked over in Adam's direction and walked over to him. I always had these urges to kiss him whenever I was around him but I ignored them most of the time. He smiled as I approached him and then poured me a drink. I took a sip and then a gulp enjoying the taste.

"Easy there tiger," He said and I nudged him while holding the drink in my hand. There was something about Adam that could make me so angry but feel so safe and happy at the same time. Marshall seemed to noticed all of these feelings that I held inside of me but he chose not to say anything to me about it.

The music started blaring and I gulped down the rest of my drink and then grabbed Adam's hand and brought him to the living room where everyone seemed to be dancing already. His placed his hands on my hips and we started to grind. My hands were all over him and then they ended up in the little bit of hair that he had left. His face was at my neck now and I felt him occasionally nibbling at my ear. He was turning me on big time.

We grinded for a little while and then we stopped facing each other and laughing. He pulled some moves on me then too, dancing over my body but then we stopped and walked back to the kitchen for another drink. Everyone seemed to be drunk now and I had to admit that I was a little drunk.

Adam poured me another drink and handed it to me, he downed some alcohol himself and then put his hands on my hips. I put arms around his neck and we swayed a little bit to the music. He was nibbling on my ear again and it took my all not to attack him.

"You like that don't you?" He whispered in my ear and I smiled at him and moaned quietly answering his question. He took me by the hand and brought me upstairs along with a bottle of tequila. It had become my favourite thing to drink and I smiled at him remembering that. I drank some from the bottle and he did too and before we knew it we were both drunk.

I could feel the beginning of the summer replaying all over again and it scared me in a way. This time though we did more than kiss, but we didn't have sex either. Every moan that escaped from me made Adam work at what he was doing even more and eventually I was moaning his name. I loved how strong he felt and I loved how he always made sure I was comfortable.

He stopped and then kissed me hard on the lips. I could get used to this. We made out for a few more minutes and then the door swung open. I swear I was going to kill whoever walked in on us this time. I looked up and my mouth dropped open, kill me now.