No Strings Attached, Please?

“Hey, thanks for the cupcakes” Dante nudged my side while I was enjoying my cupcake at Dante and Geoff’s flat. Geoff decided to rent a flat instead staying at a dorm because there he couldn’t do anything fun. Oh yeah like inviting girls, smoking weed or hiring prostitutes to fuck. For the record, I didn’t go to their flat randomly, I came with Nat, Kale and Carlton after school.

Kale was still being a mute after Bridget showed him her disgusted look. I couldn’t understand their on-again off-again relationship. I know that Bridget still wanted Kale, and Kale still wanted her. But why didn’t they just end up together? I’m just sick to see their romance.

Dante sat next to me while I was sitting Indian style. He took a cupcake from the box I decided to buy for the boys because I knew once I was at Dante-Geoff’s place, there would be no edible food. Well, you know how boys are.

Geoff was shirtless; he sat on the windowsill while he dragged something I sniffed like pot. He looked out to the moving clouds while familiar smokes escaped from his nostrils.

“Geez, this is so good,” Dante moaned when he munched on his cupcake next to me. I turned my head to him to find he got some cream on his nose tip. I chuckled at him and then pointed it out. He noticed and quickly wiped his nose and crooked a smile.

Uh-oh.

I decided to look away from him. I just didn’t want to make the same mistake by wanting him again. I didn’t want to get lost in the beautiful pools of him. I got off from my spot and ventured to the boys’ messy kitchen and then rummaged their fridge.

Oh wow, the boys were a mess. They only had leftovers that were only God knows how old! Ew. But there was a can of root beer that I decided to grab since I was pretty thirsty.

“Geez, what the fuck is that?” Suddenly a voice came from my back. I turned my head to find Nat was pointing the growing green sandwich inside the fridge while he was holding his soda.

“I think it’s a sandwich,” I shrugged and let out a giggle.

Nat sipped his soda and registered me, “Remind me to not move in with them when I graduated from high school”

I only crooked a smile at Nat and then started to find something to eat. Well, I wasn’t really in the mood for cupcakes. The boys probably had some popcorn. And yes, they did. I found instant popcorn inside one of the counter drawer and decided to make it.

I turned my head to find Nat’s eyes were boring on my… ass? I smirked to him and he quickly looked away.

“Enjoying the view?” I teased.

Nat suddenly coughed his soda and managed to stutter his words. “I wasn’t checking out your ass,” he nervously laughed. I snickered at him and then I felt he was standing right next to me. He was reaching for something above the fridge that happened to be a Skittles bag.

I tossed the popcorn bag into the microwave. He leaned against the counter, watching me. And that’s when I got the idea to make fun of him. I didn’t know why but I feel like making a joke with Nat.

Nat looked a little surprised when I stepped in front of him and pressed myself against him, but didn’t complain when I began to move my hips against his in a suggestive fashion as I kissed his neck and ran my hands through his hair. Nat, couldn’t help himself, he moaned, shutting his eyes as he pressed himself against me and wound his arms around my waist to keep our bodies locked together.

I felt him getting rapidly stiff against me and I pulled his head down to kiss him, slipping my tongue into his mouth, all the while pressing and rubbing even harder against his hipbones as he groaned in satisfaction and grew even bigger in that general area.

I abruptly pulled away from him as the microwave beeped, and his eyes popped open as he stared at me in total disbelief. I ignored him and got a large bowl out of the cabinet.

Kale barged in with perfect timing. He looked as if he’s just seen a ghost.

“Oh my God. What the fuck, Nat??!” Kale snickered annoyingly at Nat who was groaning in annoyance instead of pleasure. Kale turned his head to me and shook his head.

“What happened there?” It was Geoff who was probably too worried that Nat or me might mess up with his kitchen.

“Oh nothing, Gee. It’s just Nat got a little… excited about… uh, the popcorn” Kale stifled a laugh and then dumped his soda can into the garbage. Nat glared at Kale and I could see he was burning in the sheer embarrassment when Kale pointed out Nat’s groin.

I could see something pitched up beneath his jeans and it made me laugh so hard, until Geoff screamed at me from the leaving room, yelling for me to shut up.

“Well, Sava-Ave. You know how to treat a guy, huh?” Kale wiggled his eyebrows at Nat as Nat threw an empty bag of Skittles at him.

“Shut the fuck up, Kale. Get lost…” Nat muttered. His eyes were down to find his boner was poking out.

“Right… have fun hiding your bro, Nat” Kale laughed again and then sauntered out from the kitchen. I turned my head and bit my lip, I stifled a laugh in the same instant I came to a realization that Nat just pinned me to the counter island with his hands trapped my sides.

His eyes bore a hole into me while he slowly whispered in my ear, making me shiver.

“You’re a fucking tease…” he whispered before kissing my neck, nibbling it while his hand found its way to slide inside my t-shirt. I could feel his cold hand was squeezing the skin just below my breast. I knew I couldn’t help it anymore because I let out a soft moan.

I moaned his name while I shut my eyes and with that I found nothing. I felt Nat pull away and walk from me with wide grin on his face. He just left me in the kitchen while I tried to manage my uneven breath.

Fuck you, Nat.



I stayed at Geoff and Dante shared flat for hours. Mom had texted me where I was and I easily replied that I was ‘on a date’ with Nat and she didn’t need to worry about that.

Geoff was already stoned, he laughed for unknown reason and he sounded like crazy or something. Well, he’s stoned anyway. I was actually didn’t quite like the atmosphere around the flat because it smelled a lot like testosterone. Shiz, I was the only girl there. If only Bridget still went out with Kale, and Kat would join me today, I wouldn’t be all alone like this.

Dante joined Geoff as Geoff spared him one of his weed joints. On the other hand, Kale and Carlton were busy with their game console, playing Starcraft II. Much to my dismay, Geoff invited some guys from his classes in. I didn’t really catch their names, but I was quite sure their names were Sidney, Jeffrey and Lincoln. Little did I know, they also participated in Battle of The Bands, but I didn’t see them there.

The guy with beard that I assumed was Lincoln was watching Kale and Carlton play their game. On the other hand, the noisiest guy named Sidney and his friend Jeffrey joined to smoke some weed.

I was wondering what I was doing here since I was the only girl.

Well, Nat dragged me. He said Dante and Geoff wanted to have some band meeting at their flat, and he needed me to go with him. I didn’t know the main purpose he needed me. I was useless here, unless I bought the cupcakes.

I didn’t get it! I thought the guys would have some band meeting instead of having a stoner party like this. I didn’t like to be here. Heck, as much as I wanted to ask for a joint, I passed the offer since Geoff hated me and those stupid friends of Geoff were a pain in the ass.

Dante continuously asked me to join him. But I politely refused and reasoned that I was tired and needed a nap. I decided to leave the boys alone and walked to one of the bedrooms. I really hated Geoff’s friends, they’re really annoying. I could feel one of them (the noisy one) kept wolf-whistling at me and harassed me with his nasty flirtatious call.

Even, between his reveries, he slipped something about me wanting his body and we should multiply. What the fuck? I was really angry that time, and Dante only laughed on this. He wanted my body? Well, over my dead body! I’d kill him in the first try.

I couldn’t believe that Geoff’s shameless friend was really intimidating and being an asswipe. Oh sure, maybe I liked sex, but not with that guy! Of course Sidney was cute and hot, he’s got a body, but his attitude was a big zero. God knows he wouldn’t have girls to settle with if he’s being a horny fucker like that.

With a loud cynical snort, I ventured inside the bedroom and found a vacant bed. With wide smile I ran to it and threw myself on the bed while I grabbed the pillows to snuggle. The bedroom was silent and peaceful. I even barely could smell weed from here. I should have done this long ago.

I suddenly heard a giggle coming and it startled me. I gasped and quickly turned to where the voice came from.

“Oh shit, Nat. You freaked me out!” I cursed as I patted my heart. “When did you come in? I didn’t hear you”

Nat scoffed, “I’ve been here for long time, even before you stormed inside the room and let out those annoying girly squeal over Dante’s bed”

I gasped, “I didn’t squeal! And…” I looked at the pillow I’d been hugging “Oh God no wonders this pillow smells a lot like Dante” I grinned just to make Nat roll his eyes at me.

He went back to what he’s been doing all this time. That’s why I didn’t see him out there; he’s been here all the time. I just saw him there, sitting with his right leg over his left one. He put his guitar on his lap while his eyes were locked on the guitar strings in his fingers. His right fingers strummed a melody while his left fingers formed chords to play.

He began to play some melody and that’s when I was hit by realization. Nat looked really good with guitar on his lap. I could tell my heart beat accelerated pretty fast just from looking how solemn Nat looked when he was playing his guitar randomly.

FUCK NO!

“I didn’t know you also play guitar,” I chuckled nervously as I hid my embarrassment. There’s a slight trill in my tone, but I only smiled at him. Nat lifted up his head as his God fingers played the chord quite fast.

Nat smirked, “You think you’re the only one who could play multiple instruments? Man, you’re a snob”

I pouted at him, “I’m not a snob. I just didn’t know you play guitars” I stuck out my tongue and the decided to slide to the edge of bed so I could watch him playing guitar closer. He was sitting on the chair next to Dante’s wardrobe and he suddenly let out a chuckle when he spotted me being eager to watch him play.

Nat flashed a toothy smile to me before he started to put some light try on his guitar. His light strum on the guitar was really slow and peaceful to hear. I wasn’t pay attention to the music he was playing but then I suddenly knew what was it. I didn’t ask him to sing, but he did it anyway when the intro ended.

“There's so many things that I could say…. But I'm sure it would come out all wrong. You've got something that I can't explain,” he sang while he closed his eyes and I enjoyed humming the song by Sleeping With Sirens called All My Heart.

“Still I try and try and let you know. Summer we spent, one could never forget. Looking for any kind of reason to escape all the mess.. that. We thought is what made us. Ain't it funny now, we can see…..we're who we're meant to be…” he continued. He wasn’t the type of guy who could sing. Well, his voice wasn’t as good as Dante’s but there’s something attractive I found in him when he’s singing.

My heart even leapt again when his voice oozed the room as his smooth guitar play echoed. Damn… he looked hot.

“You still have all of my……….You still have all of my…..You still have all of my heart….Ohhhh” and then he stopped playing as his eyes quickly darted to mine. I assumed that there’s something funny on my face because he smiled at me mischievously.

“What?”

“Nothing, you looked amazed…” he wiggled one of his eyebrows.

“WELL...” I sighed “You’re quite good but not even close to amazing like Dante…”

Nat rolled his eyes at me when he heard the name I mentioned. He then continued messing with the guitar.

“You sang the song passionately,” I noted. He turned his eyes to me again and looked confused for a moment. “I guess you want to sing that in front of Lynn,”

As I said that, he couldn’t help but laughing really loud until his guitar fell off.

“Fuck, do you think I’m that cheesy? Damn, I won’t even show this to her. She probably would freak out if I dedicated this song for her” Nat still laughed and then grabbed his guitar back.

“Well… some girls love cheesy and romantic stuff. Some girls like Lynn…”

“You think so?” he arched his eyebrows.

“Yeah…” Because little did you know I love it when you sing that to me. “So, how’s it going? I mean when you borrowed her your t-shirt…”

Nat blinked at me and awkwardly shifted on his seat. He decided not to answer me. But that made me suspicious, if he didn’t want to talk about it, there’s must be something about it.

“She didn’t rape you, right?” I half joked and snickered at him.

Nat scratched his nape and exhaled deeply.

“Wait a second; please don’t tell me she rejected you again? Damn, you helped her with your t-shirt an—“

“We made out” he quickly cut off.

I could tell my eyes gloated out. I was beyond surprised that Lynn could be a slut like that. Well, one time she rejected Nat and fucked Evan but another time she could throw herself on Nat. What the fuck is wrong with her? As much as I hated myself for fucking around with boys, I just didn’t jump around boys that easily.

“H-how so?” I dangerously asked. I knew I shouldn’t have asked because I already felt my stomach tied in a knot when I even heard they made out.

Oh fuck, stop it, Savannah. I even don’t like Nat that way. Why should I feel like somebody just stole my boyfriend like that? Nathaniel Sean McGregor isn’t my boyfriend! We’re more like fuck buddies. Oh right.

Fuck, now I was talking to myself.

Nat grinned from ear to ear at me when he’s telling the story.

“She followed me to my locker and then she just leaned there next to me while I rummaged my locker. I didn’t pay too much attention to her at first, because I knew she rejected me in the first place, and I didn’t want to feel that hurt of rejection. I couldn’t deal it with anymore, so I put my straight face to her and when I gave her my t-shirt, I saw she… she’s...” he swallowed hard while I listened to him.

“She’s fucking teasing me! I only gasped at her and in my surprise, she just dragged me to the nearest vacant class… I was too shocked to realize what she did to me. She pushed me inside and then pinned me to the wall….” He sighed while he rubbed his bridge of nose. “She pinned me really hard until I could feel her tits through her wet fabric. Fuck…that was a moment!”

I was lost of words. God damn, Lynn was such a slut. She’s calling me whore but she’s one!

“She stripped her wet t-shirt and then grabbed me by neck. Then she just collided our lips together while saying something about wanting me… IDK, but that was really hot. I couldn’t help but giving in…” he grimaced mischievously as he saw my plain face.

His smile fell and awkwardly clenched his teeth together, “Say something, Sav?”

I only looked at him with forced smile and then chuckled in a weird way.

“That’s pretty intense. So, did you fuck her there?” Fuck, I shouldn’t have asked more.

“Uhh no, we didn’t. But well, she wanted me there. And she mentioned about something that we go out sometime again and start over…”

I smiled weakly to him, “Congratulation then”

He rubbed his nape again, “Yeah thanks. But there’s something… uhhh….”

“What?”

“I wasn’t planning to tell you this soon, but I think I should now…” he nervously whispered to me.

“What??” I pressed.

“She wants me to dump you,”

There was something cracked behind my spine. I could hear some imaginary shattering sound in my brain but I didn’t have any idea what the fuck was that. I could feel my stomach do a flipside and the butterflies in it fluttered really wildly.

It felt like your boyfriend of many years wanted to break up with you. When in fact, he wasn’t even my boyfriend.

“Uhh...” I managed my words and swallowed the lump in my throat. “That’s fine. Of course. Haha, we’re not even together, right? We should let her know that soon…” I faked my giggle and then gave a victorious high five to him.

“That’s great! Jeez, thanks a lot for this, Savannah!” he put down his guitar and approached me in the bed. He enveloped me in tight hug and rubbed my back while he gave me countless thank-yous. “I wouldn’t make it without you,”

I pulled away slowly and smiled widely, “S-sur-re! No problem!”

He then hugged me again while I rested my chin on his shoulder blade. I shut my eyes close and dragged in his scent that I would probably miss. Didn’t it mean we’re not going to fuck again? I only whimpered silently.

Screw that. It’s not about the sex. It’s about how I wouldn’t spend my time alone with him again. Pfftt... as if there’s something between us. Oh fuck, screw this! I sounded like… I liked him! I didn’t like him. I didn’t like Nathaniel Sean McGregor.

We would never be together.

Because I just helped Nat to get Lynn. Now, Lynn’s got it bad, she wanted him and Nat got his happy ending fairytale.