Lies and Broken Smiles
07
"Dante." I smiled as I ran up to him
"Are you ready?" He asked
"Yea." He walks over to his car and opens my door
"In you go milady."
"You're so weird." I laugh
He gets in on the other side
"Yea I get told that a lot."
He puts his back pack in the back seat and suddenly it's awkward. I look down I don't really even know this guy why did I decide to even go out with him.
"Um.... Why." I look down not sure how to phrase the question.
"Why what?" He asks
"Why did you decide to invite me out. I mean we don't really know each other." I say feeling bad but I had
to know
He looks out the window before looking at me again.
"I don't know I guess I just like you, I wanted to be friends with you." He said. Honesty makes everything
awkward between us. "You don't have to say yes if it makes you uncomfortable" He then says
"No it's not that! I was just wondering I really do want to hang out with you." I say
"Are you sure."
"Of course." I give him my best pretend smile and it seems to work because he starts to drive.
We arrive at the mall a little while later and walk around. Time seems to pass by quickly with this guy. He doesn't know anything about me and that makes it easier to be myself. After hours of walking around he stops suddenly and I nearly bump into him.
"Why did you suddenly stop?" I say still standing much too close to him.
"I'm starving. What about you?" He says
"Oh no I'm fine." I say "I'll eat when I get home."
"You must be hungry it's late and it's on me if you're worried about money." He says
He starts to walk but I don't move he notices and turns around
"Come on at least have a look with me."
I move slowly, I do not want to go there that is a dangerous place my stomach is grumbling as the smell of food hits me. I want to eat everything in sight but I don't deserve it.
"Come on, how about some pizza?" He asks looking at me
"No thank you." I say blushing I can't think of any lies to get me away. Even if it may be all I do.
"Okay what about some McDonalds?" He asks
"Oh I don't eat fast food." I say "It's disgusting and greasy." I say and it's true
"Subway isn't greasy." He smiles pulling me along.
I seem to be getting pulled a lot lately
I end up getting a sandwich, wheat bread with lettuce and cucumbers. I feel bad for two reasons, one well I have this thing full of calories in my hand and two he wouldn't let me pay. I sit down with him just staring at the food.
"Aren't you hungry?" He asked
"Oh it's not that." I say
stupid you should've said yes
I have to force myself to eat it if he brought it, but I can't. I pull a piece off one of the corners and raise it to my mouth and slowly chew.
This is awful
suddenly though it's as if I can’t stop myself the hunger takes a hold of me and I eat the sandwich so fast it's gone in what feels like a matter of seconds. Dante's looking at me.
"I knew you were hungry." He grabs his soda looks at his watch "Oh wow it's so late."
"What time is it?" I ask trying to ignore the guilty feelings
"It's six already."
"We were really here for that long?"
"Must've been. I'll take you home, so you don't get in trouble."
We head out the door and I'm soon returned home, mother is furious.
"You should've called! I didn't know where you were, I was worried."
Those words, why is she worried?
She never worried before.
I listen to her as she continues to yell before I lock myself upstairs in my room.
I lay on my bed too tired to do any type of work and fall asleep so fast.
"Are you ready?" He asked
"Yea." He walks over to his car and opens my door
"In you go milady."
"You're so weird." I laugh
He gets in on the other side
"Yea I get told that a lot."
He puts his back pack in the back seat and suddenly it's awkward. I look down I don't really even know this guy why did I decide to even go out with him.
"Um.... Why." I look down not sure how to phrase the question.
"Why what?" He asks
"Why did you decide to invite me out. I mean we don't really know each other." I say feeling bad but I had
to know
He looks out the window before looking at me again.
"I don't know I guess I just like you, I wanted to be friends with you." He said. Honesty makes everything
awkward between us. "You don't have to say yes if it makes you uncomfortable" He then says
"No it's not that! I was just wondering I really do want to hang out with you." I say
"Are you sure."
"Of course." I give him my best pretend smile and it seems to work because he starts to drive.
We arrive at the mall a little while later and walk around. Time seems to pass by quickly with this guy. He doesn't know anything about me and that makes it easier to be myself. After hours of walking around he stops suddenly and I nearly bump into him.
"Why did you suddenly stop?" I say still standing much too close to him.
"I'm starving. What about you?" He says
"Oh no I'm fine." I say "I'll eat when I get home."
"You must be hungry it's late and it's on me if you're worried about money." He says
He starts to walk but I don't move he notices and turns around
"Come on at least have a look with me."
I move slowly, I do not want to go there that is a dangerous place my stomach is grumbling as the smell of food hits me. I want to eat everything in sight but I don't deserve it.
"Come on, how about some pizza?" He asks looking at me
"No thank you." I say blushing I can't think of any lies to get me away. Even if it may be all I do.
"Okay what about some McDonalds?" He asks
"Oh I don't eat fast food." I say "It's disgusting and greasy." I say and it's true
"Subway isn't greasy." He smiles pulling me along.
I seem to be getting pulled a lot lately
I end up getting a sandwich, wheat bread with lettuce and cucumbers. I feel bad for two reasons, one well I have this thing full of calories in my hand and two he wouldn't let me pay. I sit down with him just staring at the food.
"Aren't you hungry?" He asked
"Oh it's not that." I say
stupid you should've said yes
I have to force myself to eat it if he brought it, but I can't. I pull a piece off one of the corners and raise it to my mouth and slowly chew.
This is awful
suddenly though it's as if I can’t stop myself the hunger takes a hold of me and I eat the sandwich so fast it's gone in what feels like a matter of seconds. Dante's looking at me.
"I knew you were hungry." He grabs his soda looks at his watch "Oh wow it's so late."
"What time is it?" I ask trying to ignore the guilty feelings
"It's six already."
"We were really here for that long?"
"Must've been. I'll take you home, so you don't get in trouble."
We head out the door and I'm soon returned home, mother is furious.
"You should've called! I didn't know where you were, I was worried."
Those words, why is she worried?
She never worried before.
I listen to her as she continues to yell before I lock myself upstairs in my room.
I lay on my bed too tired to do any type of work and fall asleep so fast.