All I Wanted Was You

“Where are you taking me?”
He smirked
“You said surprise you so I am. Now shush and come on.”
“Alright.”
He held my hand and lead the way.
He smiled and he lead me to…
“The book store?”
“Yeah come on.”
“But my boss isn’t here he went away for his anniversary.”
“You can show me around then come on.”
“Fine.”
I pulled out my set of keys and opened the door.
“In we go.”
“Yes ma’am.”
I locked the door behind me.
“Tell me something Belinda.”
“Yeah?”
“Why do you work here?”
I smiled.
“Why not? Work in a place where it holds all the best stories of all time? Stories of love, adventure, life. And plus Mr. Stevenson has known me since I was a little girl, so he knew he could trust me with this place whenever he needed to step out.”
“But you don’t get a lot of customers these days.”
“You noticed. People don’t buy books these days. You can always read it off the internet they say, or those electronic readers. Kind of ticks me off sometimes.”
“I would imagine. So tell me something does the boss let you take some books home?”
“All the time. He knows how much I love them.”
“I bet you have a massive collection.”
“You haven’t seen it have you?”
“Seen what?”
I smiled wide and grabbed his hand.
“Come on let me show you.”
I grabbed my bag and locked the place up and headed towards my place.
I opened the door to my loft and led him to the room in the back.
“Just don’t call me a freak for this alright?”
He looked at me with a strange expression on his face.
“Why would I call you that?”
I took his hand and lead him to the biggest room in my place…my library.
There were shelves everywhere filled with books.
“Oh my gosh…Belinda how many do you have?”
“This isn’t even half of it. I have the rest of it in my parent’s house.”
“You have a house?”
“Yeah…when they passed they left me everything. The house, their cars, and their money…though I haven’t even touched anything. I moved out here because I just couldn’t live there all by myself. And Dan decided to move in next door because it was too weird not seeing each other.”
He turned to look at me and then looked at my massive collection.
“What do you have here?”
“Everything I have ever read.”
“Wow…”
It was easy in a way. To be myself around him.
He was so honest with me. He never lied or pretended to be someone he is not.
He asks questions when he wants to know something, and tends to avoid the ones he knows I won’t answer. I looked at him while he roamed my library.
“You know we haven’t been apart in quite a few days.”
He turned around to look at me.
“I don’t want to be apart from you.”
I leaned up against the wall.
“Why not?”
He came close to me.
“I would feel so weird and incomplete if you weren’t around me.”
He intertwined his fingers with mine.
“How can you care about me this much? This early on?”
He kissed my hand and smiled.
“I don’t know but all I know is that you are different. You are special, and I don’t ever want to let go of you.”
“Then don’t.”
He pulled me close to him and held me.
How can this be so easy?
It’s like breathing with Rob.
And yet I remembered…how he can he let himself be opened to this?
I knew he was hurt just as bad as I was, and yet here he is holding me.
Telling me he can’t imagine his life without me.
How can he be this strong while I sometimes have a hard time letting myself feel all this?
I wanted to know….I needed to know.
“Rob?”
“Yes?”
I buried my face in his chest and then looked up at him.
“How did you break?”
He stiffened up but then quickly relaxed and kissed the top of my head.
“I…”
He took a deep breathe.
He wasn’t ready to tell me yet.
“I am sorry I shouldn’t have asked.”
“No no it’s okay. It just caught me off guard.”
“You don’t have to answer it.”
“I will but not right now. I will tell you one day, Okay?”
“Okay.”
He let me go and I went to put on some music.
He went back to the living room and sat on the couch.
The music filled my place…it felt so nice.
I walked in the room and leaned against my wall he opened his arms and waited for me to come to him.
I walked up to him and slowly let myself sit with him.
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my cheek.
I held his arms to me and we listened to the voice sing.

“You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why”

I closed my eyes and burned this moment into my memory.

“So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same”

He kissed my cheek and told me
“You are everything to me Belinda Morgan.”