All I Wanted Was You

I walked behind him and I pulled the hood over my head more.
he stopped and turned around.
"Why are you walking behind me come on beside me."
I shook my head
"well at least walk a bit in front of me so I can talk to you then."
I stood there and looked at the ground.
"Please?"
I sighed and walked in front of him.
he smiled and continued to walk.
"Where exactly am I going?"
"Just up until the end of the block and then take a right."
"To the hotel?"
"Yeah I have a room book there until god knows when."
"Okay."
we got to the hotel and the door man smiled
"Ah welcome back Mr. Pattinson."
"Thanks Zac."
he got in front of me and lead me to the elevators.
"Come on."
we stepped into the elevator and he pushed the button for floor number 5
"I like the number five."
he smiled
"Really? why five?"
"I don't know. I just do."
I knew why. You can split of five and in the end you are left with two pairs and one left over.
that single right there by itself. standing up on its on, standing strong.
the elevator dinged.
he walked out and I followed.
and lead me to the door that said 505.
he opened it.
"Come on I wont bite."
I took a deep breath and walked into the crazy room that was Rob.
there was clothes everywhere and books and papers all over the place.
"Nice room."
"Thanks. hahaha I wasn't expecting to bring anyone here."
I walked over the chair that was placed over by the huge window that lead to a balcony and sat there.
"Why don't you like people."
my head snapped in his direction.
"What?"
"You said earlier that you are not good with people why?"
he is a stranger don't tell him anything.
"Because...."
well maybe just tell him something little.
"I have lost almost all faith in people."
he looked at me the way he did earlier.
I looked away and stared out the window.
there was a knock at the door and he went and came back with a tray of coffee mugs, and pot.
he handed me a mug.
"Thanks."
"You're welcome."
"Why do you like to read?"
"whats with all the questions?"
"Why do you refuse to answer them?"
"Why do you insist on them?"
"Why are you answering my question with a question?"
"Why are you so pushy?"
I looked back out the window.
"Sorry I just...I mean it when I say I want to get to know you. I don't want anything from you other than getting to know you...okay?"
I took a sip from my mug...oy bitter.
"sugar."
he looked up
"excuse me?"
"Oh I meant do you have any sugar? Its a bit bitter. and some milk?"
"Oh yeah sorry here you go."
I sat there wondering what I was doing here.
why am I sitting here with this guy?
why?
"So why are you here? Shouldn't you be in like shooting a movie or something?"
he smiled and chuckled.
"Yeah but I just want a breather for a while. to just focus on myself and then who knows where I might go.."
I looked at him and saw him run his fingers through his hair and take a sip from his mug and then fidgeted a bit.
"How did you end you end up at the music club the other night?"
"I wasn't really looking into going in there. I was just walking around. It was dark and nobody would recognize me. But a voice pulled me in there. I walked in to find you on stage singing. You drew me in."
I looked down.
"Thanks."
"Well its the truth. How come you aren't as shy on stage?"
a little bit remember.
"Because no matter how bad my day is. I get on that stage and feel invincible. like nothing can take this piece of me away."
he looked at me...why does he keep looking at me?
"That's..that's amazing right there. To have that. "
"yes it is."
I didn't notice that he was slowly moving closer to where I was.
"Hold it there. Just stay there...please."
"Why?"
"I just...have problems with people being close."
he moved closer he was pushing it.
"Don't"
he got a chair and sat across from me.
"What are you doing?"
"I just wanna see something."
he reached for my hand and touched it.
I couldn't.
my head was screaming no.
I got up put my mug down and ran out the door.
I don't remember much but I heard him shout my name.
I ran all the way home.
opened the door, shut it and slid down to the floor.
"No...no no no no no...don't so this. you can't."
you can't or you won't let yourself?
both.